today I miss you

He kissed me tenderly, adoringly, I forgot the crowd, the place, the time, the reason... only remembering that he loved me, that he wanted me, that I was his.

~ Breaking Dawn



La vita e bella. Life is beautiful. I woke up today knowing that you were coming home and today I will be able to see your eyes again. I love you baby and this much is true; today I woke up smiling because in all darkness, you are coming home. I know today

Baby, today's story was in a far away land. Lights and fairies were free to roam and the skies were wide open books to be read. Adventures and stories in these lands were so common but none more endearing than the story of the lamb and the lion. And there is was on the plains of silence that there was this lamb. Silent as the night and gentle as the breeze for this lamb was lost. He woke up never knowing why was he roaming the hills and never knowing where he came from. And he looked high and low. Searching among other lambs for a place to call home or someone he could recognise.

And on the other plains beyond the hills was a lion, and she too searched. But she looked for her lamb. For it was many dark and stormy nights ago that her lamb was taken away and never seen in the mountains again. She hunted high and low, sniffing the air for any hint of scent but nothing showed itself. She hunted by day and night, following the stars. No river was left untouched or bush undisturbed as she continued to find.

For once, they lived happily tending to themselves in the mountains. And in the midst of the mountains, there was ever joy in each other and the stars would shine for them and the sun would smile behind the clouds. But the traveling hyenas always looking for an easy prey would happen to pass by the mountains and they hid and hunted for the lamb. For they were hungry but they were unwilling to oppose the lion head on. So they waited for the cover of the night and in the darkness they crept.

Holding him off, they rushed off in delight only for the lion to give chase and great was her anger. They made haste for the meadows and in the darkness, they fell and with them the lamb. The lion roared and howled into the night and started down the mountains. The lamb by miracle survived but cracked his skull and lost all memory. Left searching, they were separated. But the lion kept looking and the lamb kept searching for his meaning he knew he was missing.

Forests and sharp edges stood between them but they always looked. And many moons passed and one sunny day they met but the lamb could not remember and he looked in awe and fear. The lion leapt forward in joy but they were not aware of the eyes in the shadows that also leapt at the opportunity to pounce. They leapt to surprise and beyond the shadows, the hyenas appeared ready to take advantage of surprise and a tired lion. But the lamb too would have none of that and rammed right into the horde of hyenas.

The lion gaining composure clawed and roared them into escape. Looking and gazing at the lion, the lamb muttered, "You seem so familiar. Your eyes tell me so many stories but where my mind fails, my heart speaks. I know your face" The lion, teary eyed, said, "You are my lamb and I'm your lion. We are meant to be. Do you not remember me?"

To which the puzzled lamb, spoke, "But you are mighty and I am weak. My head aches but this is clear in my mind. You are everything to me right now." The lion, gently purred and moved forward, "Indeed you are my meaning and I am yours. We should go home now. You must have been so frightened and without you, I know nothing but sadness." The lamb stepped forward, "But I was never afraid, somehow, somewhere, although I do not remember you, I knew you would come. Because I am yours and you are mine."

With that, they vanished. Some say the lamb never remembered his past and came to love the lion again. Some say that the lamb remembered and too came to love her as once was. I like to think that they were meant to be. It is written. The lamb only knows this; today was made to love a lion and today is another chapter of love that the lamb is waiting to complete with the lion. Whether I can feel your hand or not, your heart is here with me and mine with yours. I love you baby and I miss you so so much.

PS. Bie, I'm here waiting. Lamb is not going anywhere. I'm going to be here. Waiting for you. Smile for me baby because I am for you, only you.

keep falling with me

I thought you were so dumb, so mean and monotoned. Now you're caring, loveable and speak to me with passion. I guess one kiss under a stary sky can make you fall in love. I pray we keep falling.

~ I Guess We Can Fall In Love



Today you're tired and feeling down. But the weather I'm painting for you is nothing worth being down about. Today, you're leaving on a jetplane but in all reality, the only place you're going today is right to my heart. I know you must be thinking what can be so great about hopping on a plane for a two day work trip being tired with nothing to look forward to. But lamb wants lion to know that with each passing day, we are approaching each milestone.

If before, we have nothing to look forward to. Today, we can wait for next week when our food adventure begins and more importantly, the next milestone in our chapter. And with each passing day, each passing milestone, I look back and wonder where were you in the past years and I wonder maybe it's worth it what we have right now. So don't be down with all the worries and stress you have right now.

What we have right here, this place right here is called happyness. Sometimes, I do believe that all the bad stuff happens because only then will the great times be magnified and you want to cling on so much to them that they remain in your memory. Every second, be it at 18 meters under the sea, to dancing under the stars on sands with racing waves, to a kiss after a vomit, to the boat rides, to the meals that didin't matter before I met you to the movies both crappy and great. And of course, the times, I get lost in your eyes.

Today exists because it's another day to walk with you and another day to hold your hand and say today, I'm smiling and it's all because of you. Today, when we're both tired, we can say we are here for each other. I know you're busy before the plane takes off, so I'm writing this here to comfort you in all the madness. In all the craziness around us, I am here for you. If there is any sense or logic in this, I love you and tomorrow, I'm going to wait for you, my lion.

The stars keep falling and each passing day, today, I keep falling for you baby. Bad dreams, bad dreams go away. Good dreams, good dreams here to stay. Tonight, if there are no stars in your sky, rest assured that I am going to shine for you and light your darkest skies. Love you baby and from this moment, I miss you but it's okay. Love is just that, being there for you, at all times and tomorrow is going to shine all the brighter.

PS. Bie, I know it's simple and I know many parts are repetitive but everything happens for a reason. I love you for a reason and that reason is you.

your smile..is all i need

You have five smiles Pete. One when you think someone an idiot. One when you think someone’s REALLY an idiot. One when you’re singing to Barry White. One when you’re getting all dressed up. And one when you’re looking at me.

~ Rosalee, Win a Date with Tad Hamilton!



It's taken a while to find the time to write about how far we have come but today everything looks all the more clearer. And on the way to work, we saw a rainbow :) like little pockets from heaven, there was sunshine and maybe lion didin't get it when I pointed it out to her but she's my little pockets of heaven that I see. This morning I hugged her tight and felt maybe that was heaven. And holding her hand as we drove to work was another. And as she fed me in the car, that was another. All these small glimpses of heaven. And all I can do - is smile.

Today, we're at another milestone. Our wedding is slowly taking shape and Bob Nicolas seems to be on his way to our wedding. His takes are absolutely fantastic and to summarise what we have so far are absolute quality. Lion is worried about the rising costs but I'm confident we will pull through. We've come this far and to hold her hand this way feels so right.

We started with Fifoto and we're excited that we're going to have Fiona and her team on our special day. http://fifototemp.ipower.com/blog



and then somehow, the interest expanded to include the Photoz



Then, two weeks ago, this video happened. This is the video that first made us fell in "love" with his work



and then, lion spotted this, and we were sold and Bob Nicolas is on his way.



This seems to be her favourite video and am sure that ours is going to be as equally beautiful if not more so :) Most of our vendors are set and to boot, we are even going to engage a vintage car who's owner, Mr. Lim has simply been a gem.



And of course, a wedding planner to boot, Ms. Natasha Khoo has been gracious to us ever since we won the wedding competition last month :)



These are the five smiles that we have for our wedding so far and I sure am excited, more than ever, as we kick off the countdown to our wedding :) This is our story. No fairytales today as no fairytale could mean more to us than this. This moment, right here, is my huge piece of heaven. And I see it in your eyes, your smile and in you. Today, baby, like always, you're beautiful and I love you. 6 November 2010 couldn't have come sooner.

PS. Bie, today we still write this chapter of love and everyday it just gets better. That's the only way to say it. And I believe it. Love you bie.

i want to dance with you

Ivy Walker: When we are married, will you dance with me? I find dancing very agreeable. Why can you not say what is in your head?
Lucius Hunt: Why can you not stop saying what is in yours? Why must you lead, when I want to lead? If I want to dance I will ask you to dance. If I want to speak I will open my mouth and speak. Everyone is forever plaguing me to speak further. Why? What good is it to tell you you are in my every thought from the time I wake? What good can come from my saying that I sometimes cannot think clearly or do my work properly? What gain can rise of my telling you the only time I feel fear as others do is when I think of you in harm? That is why I am on this porch, Ivy Walker. I fear for your safety before all others. And yes, I will dance with you on our wedding night.

~ The Village

There's this dance that I dreamt about. And in this you were perfect and I was there, holding your hand and all I saw was the love in your eyes. I remember I told you once that when I close my eyes, I see our wedding and it's beautiful. I close my eyes and I hear this beautiful melody. Lathika's theme in my ears and there you are running towards me on the grass and we swirl around. I see this happyness that will always last. And I see you in your with gown and it's perfect. I see you.

Last night I woke up three times, dreaming of you each time. And everything was happyness. Maybe that's why I could barely sleep well, waking up eager for today. For today, my baby's coming home. Lamb has been waiting and every second has been worth it. Today lamb is writing you another story and hopefully it will chase the blues of your day away as the plane takes you home.

People say that little hobbits did not exist but in fact, they do and they are very much real. The tales that were told were many and the secrets that were whispered were kept hidden. For their numbers dwindled and they were slowly becoming a lost race in the world. Here is one of such a tale that is still whispered in hush silence by those that know of it.

There far away in the land that is now forgotten. Lonely Meadows they used to call it. And at that time, the hobbits mingled freely and they do not hide like now among men for they were a free folk. And they loved merriment and laughter. The hobbits would party in the evenings and toil the soil in the day. They had no worry in the world for little did riches did they crave nor did any of the beauty of gems captivate them. And among them, this story starts with a hobbit who was young in hobbit years and he called upon the name, Lambo.

Now, there was a tale of another hero, Lambo and this hobbit wanted very much to be like his hero but this story is for another time to tell. He would live the day very much like any other hobbit except when night visited and he would lie under the heavens and stare into the ninght. He would wonder perhaps there was more to life than all this. He counted the stars and wondered how many worlds were there in the skies. Perhaps they were also staring back at him and wondering the same. Everyday he would try to step that one step further away onnly to turn back once making that one step further each day.

Lambo was always looking for an adventure and his came on a normal silent day. The sun was high and there was nothing unusual in the wind. When all of a sudden, a raging rabbit rode through the Meadows and so many ran and hid in fright. Many tried to knock it down but were all brushed aside. All ropes were no use and as the rabbit continued the rampage, the figure jumped from over a ledge and hanged onto its fur.

Shocked, the rabbit leapt away and with it bore away no other than Lambo himself. Crossing the streams, Lambo realised that for the first time he would be leaving the Meadows for the first time in his life. He clung as hard as he could and the rabbit ran and jumped but he held on. Bumping over a tree, Lambo finally lost his grip and the rabbit made away and escaped. Startled and frightened by the new surroundings, he gazed around him. Everything seemed so huge.

He stood still and kept hoping he was back in the Meadows. Many a time passed until he heard a tune in the woods. Searching for the source, he crashed past the bushes and stumbled upon an elf. For he knew not that the lady was an elf but she was the most fascinating and beautiful creature he ever saw. Muddled and dazzled, he stared and the elf shocked by the intruder said, "Who goes there? Show yourself. Are you friend or foe?". "Neither harm to I mean," he stammered. "But a friend to you I would want to be. I am Lambo as from the stories. I am not as tall but I am looking for an adventure."

Giggling as such an intorduction, the elf brushed her strands of hair away as she replied, "They call me Lion. And I too am on an adventure. Maybe this is fate. I am sick hence I'm looking for a cure." To which Lambo grinned, "Perhaps. I am small but my heart is big. May I be your companion on this journey? I am useful too. My hands are strong and I have a good back. You can lean and relly on me. Always. As for your cure, we'll look together.". The elf chuckled, "We'll see.". And turned aroud. Afraid and struck to the ground, Lambo so very wished to follow but all he could do was gaze at the ground.

"Aren't you coming?" The smile reappeared. "Yes. I will be there always to protect you." Smiling again, he lunged forward with her in tow. They traveled many lands, saw the land, sea and sky. They went to the depths of the ocean, to the mechanics of the sky to the highest peak of moutains. Yet they both continued looking. It was fate that one day they would both lie at night gazing under the sky. Lambo muttered, "Once I wanted to look and now that I am looking, I finally understand. What I have been looking for is and has always been by my side." Lion, grew red in the face and said, "I too found what I was looking for in you. I had been sick but today I am cured. How strange.".

The silence of the night continued and from the on began the legend of the hobbit and the elf. They say their adventures live on. And some say that they found the greatest treasure in each other for nothing satisfies other than the logic of love. For only in the mysterious equation of love can any logic be found. And today, the logic is that you are coming back. My meaning, my hope and my dreams. I can't wait to open my eyes today. I love you bie.

PS. Bie, today and forever, dance with me. I love you.

no other except you

Baby: Me? I’m scared of everything. I’m scared of what I saw, I’m scared of what I did, of who I am, and most of all I’m scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I’m with you.

~ Dirty Dancing



Baobei, I woke up alone again and the first thing I did was to reach out to handphone and let you know how much I miss you and how I can't get used to waking up without you. Today I really felt this emptiness when waking up. I think it's called the lion effect. In a theory written by the famed Prof. Lamb in 1314, he clearly explained the withdrawal symptoms of not having the lion within a 5cm radius for extended periods of time. Symptoms include waking up in the middle of the night calling out the lion's name and endlessly thinking about her presence 24/7 until hunger and thirst is often neglected. Victims have been known to be zombie walking until the lion in question returns.

But enough about me. I write this and everyday you are gone for you. Because I love you and I want everyday to be beautiful for you. So it started with a sms and now a blogpost and followed by missing you the entire day. Today I know you will be busy so I'm writing another story to cheer you up at the end of today. So I'm hoping that you will smile because no matter how dark a day can be. With you, it's going to shine.

This story starts with a swish, a bang and a bell. For in this castle on the highest peak and in the tallest tower was a princess. And it was with the swish of the star and at that moment many moons ago that she was born. There was a bang of doors as so many hurried to spread the news. And the bells across the kingdom rang to announce the joy. But fortune was not hers as she had to be taken away. For there was a prophecy that no princess should stay within the kingdom for it was her fate that another should claim her.

So she was sent to the tower and there she grew up. Her friends were the birds that visited often and the stars at night. For she was a child that had been destined. She was lonely and wondered why her family had to send her away. Many moons passed and she grew in stature and beauty. Many a traveling knight and prince sought her out but she turned them away. For they wanted nothing but her beauty and her as a prize.

On the other end of the land was a peasant boy who grew up toiling the land and soil and he grew up making friends with the beasts of the fields and talked to the plants. He too heard of this princess and his parents often told him off for dreaming of the impossible. So he dared to dream, believe the unbelievable and never took no for an answer (pun intended). And once the spring came on his twentieth year, he left for the tower. He passed many a disappointed prince and warrior. But he only strengthened his resolve and walked on.

There were many princes already waiting and they snickered and made fun of him even daring to be among them when so many who were better had already failed.

As he reached the tower, he looked up and called out, "May the most beautiful of the land show her face?". To which the princess replied, "How would you know who is the most beautiful in the land when you have not seen her. Aren't you the same as the many nobles who have come? Or the knights who boast to fight battles to honour my beauty?".

To which the peasant called out, "If you will not show your face, how then can a comparison be made?". To which the princess then appeared, "So which words of flattery will you use now?". At which the peasant replied, "None. Not because I am a man of few words or because you deserve some. But I stand here because I have a dream of love."

"And I came to find that. Having seen you, I come having talked to birds, making friends with beasts of the field. I unlike the others have not seen the things they have seen but I know a beauty that will last and I see it in you. But pray tell why are you empty?".

Shocked at such a reply, the princess replied, "Empty? I am visited everyday by suitors of every land! Everyone wants my hand in marriage.".

To which the peasant replied, "Why is it then that your smile is empty. Your words are empty and your eyes still keep looking? I may not have the robes of richness and I may not be taught by the greatest minds in the land but I know it when I see emptiness."

The pricess remained silent then bashed back, "Then what do you know about all this?"

"I may not be smart but I know what love is. Love is like when you whisper to something and although you may not fully understand what it says in return, you remain loyal because love binds. I know love is like takinng wings, it's not about letting go but trusting that love always remains and will find you"

The peasant then got on his knees, "I offer you this. I offer you this love that will remain after my speech has gone and my mind is slow. I offer these eyes that will always see you as perfect and I give you this heart that will be yours and yours alone. I give you me. I am a peasant, my place is with the land and I care for everything with this simple love that you will always be before me."

The princess was struck and she opened the tower. Everyone was astonished and many different endings were told. Some say that the princess sent him away for his foolishness and he was never heard of again. Some say that they found love far away from everything.

The ending? I think I am always here for you and that today, finally being able to see you now. You are perfect and I love you baby. Today, I miss you more than yesterday and I woke up loving you more than the last second of being awake. One more day. Lamb is waiting.

PS. Bie, I'm with you and that's all that matters. I love you.

I'm here to rawk your world

Your name makes no matter to me, so long as I can call you my own.

~ A Knight's Tale



Today I woke up missing warmth. The warmth of you. Baby, I really do miss you so so much. Today lamb is here, typing this ready to rawk my lion's world. On a day when everything seems to not make sense, like why are you there and why am I not with you, I am here to say that I'm going to make you smile today..again. Today, baby like any other day, because of you, it's beautiful.

Just saw you on webcam and you are the most beautiful person in this world to me. Period. And to be able to write something for the most beautiful person and make her smile is a privilege. Lamb woke up today missing you so so much bie. Today's story is about painting smiles on a Tuesday.

There was this tale about three brothers who started on a journey. They were poor and the land was by stricken by poverty and grief. There had been no rain and no plants grew to feed the people. They heard tales and stories of a mystical deity who lived in the mountains. Filled with hope, the village chief gathered the people and called for volunteers who would brave the journey to meet the deity. Three brothers stood up and volunteered. The path to the mountains were filled with danger and peril. They rejoiced but they were also worried for their safety.

Ont the day they set out, the villagers gathered what they could spare and gave them for their travel. There were a bit of food, flasks of water and spare clothes to brave the cold mountain. The brothers set out and they faced many challenges. Among the first hurdles that they had to face was the dreaded boiling river of doom. Fastening their clothes, they made ropes to cross. Thus they were bound by the lesson that in times of danger, only by sticking together can they survive.

They passed through the swarm of crocodiles and hidden creatures in the deeps. Sleeping back to back, they did not sink in the swarms and mud. They traveled past the rocks and sharp edges of the bottom of the mountain. Lost in the maze of the moutain, they left markers and made their way to the top slowly in the mists. And lo and behold at the top, they finally found a piece of haven. And within the lush gardens of the top, they found the deity.

The deity motioned them forward and told them not to worry for their sincerity had warmed his heart and rain would fall and the land would be bountiful. And he turned to them again mischieviously asking them, "Tell me now. How would you choose to be rewarded?". Ignoring their protest that they were not worthy and they had proven their worth, the first bowed and said, "If this be it, I would ask for the mightiest sword to fight any enemy. For I desire fame and riches and adoration of the world."

To this the deity granted and many years in his life, he won many battles and finally he was betrayed to a gruesome death by the same sword and by his own son. At this the deity wondered, "How fickle is the desire of the people for fame. Fame is fickle and does not last. Why want for the attention of the world that passes by?". He sighed and wondered about the choice of the first brother.

The second answered, "I choose the greatest riches in the world unrivalled by any other." And many years down the road, when death came. The second brother was left alone and old in bed with his wives each desiring their own treasure. Sons fighting over the remains and a grand tomb that was cold and lonely. At this the deity again pondered, "Why seek for materials that do not satisfy?"

The third softly muttered, "I always want the warmth of love and unity which brought us here. I ask for the ability to love all around me always with the same strength and peace". To this the deity was astonished and smiled while the other brothers were more happy with their choices. For many years at the end of his life, he died in the arms of the one he loved and his children had no great tomb for him but he lives on, his love remained and maybe, just maybe he died the happiest.

Know this story is a bit corny and overused but the message is the same. Today and everyday I ask for the ability and the strength to be able to always honour, love and protect you. I ask that you and me have the peace to always love and be happy with what we have in each other. I ask that every second be as meaningful as I have experienced yesterday with you. And today, I hope that you have a measure of peace and love because I am with you baby. Always. No matter where you are or what it is that you are doing but I am here for you.

And I miss you so so much.

PS. Bie, today really is beautiful after talking and seeing you online. You complete me.

there's nothing I would change

I wouldn't change one second of our life together.

~ Clare Abshire, The Time Traveler's Wife



You left today and I'm here with the taste of your lips. I will be here waiting baby for you. As usual, I start the day when you are gone by saying this little prayer for you. That my God will keep you safe wherever you are flying and I will be here waiting and be good for you. I wouldn't change one second of our life we have together even the times like these when you have to go away. I think in some ways it makes us stronger in our love and in this relationship. Yes, it is painful but it's not easy to love someone perfect.

Last night, we both couldn't sleep well. I think mine was really because I was scared of sending you off again in the morning and saying goodbye for a while. Today really is beautiful and it's beautiful because it's sustained by your memory. Today there is no reason to be sad because here we are walking this road together. I said goodbye but in all reality you are here with me and I am with you right now in that plane.

Baby, when you go away, I like to write you a story so this one's for you today.

There was this meadow in a faraway land called "Baby won't you tell me why, there's sadness in your eyes". On this meadow, there was a lamb and he had no name because he did not belong. He galloped day and night happily minding his own business. He often hummed to the tune of, "All I Have to Give" while strolling down a stream or buzzing with the song of "Love Me For a Reason" while trekking down hillsides. There was an air of peace in the meadows alike "I can see clearly now the rain is gone" but there was this emptiness in the air because "Where is the Love?".

The lamb would search under every rock, behind every hill and follow every stream but he could not even be "Accidentally In Love". Every lamb he sought never fit and he could never sing "Your Body is a Wonderland". This was until the lamb came by lo and behold, a lion. Approaching merrily, he asked her, "If you're not the one, then why does my heart feel glad. Today~". To which the lion replied, "Nothing's Going to Change My Love for You". Bleating in happyness, the lamb shouting to the skies, this is the "Shape of My Heart" and I will love you with "All I Have to Give". "Sarang Hae Dwel Gae Yo", the little lamb proposed and the lion roared in agreement.

They rode high and long into the sunset. "Somewhere Over the Rainbow, blue birds fly". Many a day was all about "Bringing Sexyback". And they wandered far and wide, seeing all parts of the meadow. But one day came when the lion heard distress cries and she had to leave to go back to help her kind. And in that moment, she replied "Angels Brought Me Here" and to here I will retun. "Wait For Me", she replied. The lamb waited day and night. Some days he sang, "It Feels Like Tonight" and other days, "I Wanna Love You". And time passed but he never left and always waited.

One day, out of the horizon, she came back singing "Let me Go Home" for my heart is with my lamb and she roared, "I'd come for you". And the lamb too ran to met his destiny. "Truly Madly Deeply" he ran. No one knew what happened in between to the lion while she went but most importantly, the lamb loved and waited with "All I Have to Give". No one knew much either what traspired or happened but the story continues. They say there are myths in songs like "Better Today" and "Lathika's theme". But what's important is that the lamb will wait for his happyness, his only happyness to return.

~ The End ~

PS. Bie, today is beautiful and I hope this story made you smile a little bit. I'm here missing you. This I can not lie. I smile for you and I hope you are smiling for me too. Love you baby. Muacksss