you..it's all about you

Albert: You know, honestly, I never knew I could feel like this. You know? I swear I'm, I'm going out of my mind. It's like I want to throw myself off of every building in New York. I, I see a cab and I just wanna dive in front of it because then I'll stop thinking about her.
Alex "Hitch" Hitchens: Look, you will. Just give it time.
Albert: That's just it. I don't want to. I mean, I've waited my whole life to feel this miserable. I mean, and if this is the only way I can stay connected with her, then... well, this is who I have to be.

~ Hitch



Tired. We're both tired but the last long weekend was simply great. If I could go back and change anything, I would not. There is nothing more to ask than to lie in the arms of the people you love the most. Yes, time flew by us but this gift of being able to spend it with the one who matters most is a privilege and I come back to work happy but unsatisfied. I still feel greedy about the time we have together. I always feel I need more time. More time holding her in sheets, more time cuddling in front of the tv, more time walking Prince, more time eating more food and more time just being with her.

Today's weather is great for sleeping indoors and I wish we could have stayed longer in bed. It's shaping to be a really lazy day and she's going to be so tired by the end of the day and nearly half dead by the end of the week. Writing this piece to cheer her up. Baby, if you're reading this, I wish I had more cheerful words to craft into a happier message and a more motivating one to make you smile. Like when you are near and make my world shinny and more cheerful, I love you. And I wish I too make your spot in the world shinny and cheerful too.

Driving to work today and talking about tomorrow and the future, it always reminds us that we have so much more to do and life is still so long ahead to walk. It's nice that way. That I can hold your hand to work and just think what today and the future holds, no matter where we end up as long as I have you, it is perfect. Like Rosie last night, don't you dare go before we complete our list or I will make sure you regret it in your next life. There are so many things to look forward to like the holy grail of marriage.

Thinking happy thoughts on a gloomy Tuesday and it helps. Because I smile each time I think about you and the thought of you cheers any stupid passing day that doesn't matter when I don't get to see you much. No matter what, I can't wait to keep painting smiles today with your hand. Writing this short post to make your moment sweet. Love you and just want you to know that it's you I'm thinking of every moment.

PS. Bie, you're beautiful today and when you smile, all dark clouds are chased away so smile for me. Always. I love you.

you and me in the rain..dance with me

Charles: There I was, standing there in the church, and for the first time in my whole life I realised I totally and utterly loved one person. And it wasn't the person next to me in the veil. It's the person standing opposite me now... in the rain.
Carrie: Is it still raining? I hadn't noticed.



Am sick today and the worse thing is that my baby is sick too. Friday's are supposed to be full of joy and yes, my day started perfect in the warmth of her hand and the beauty of her eyes. There is no other perfection than to wake up and start a day in the arms of the person who is most important to you. I felt ill from the moment my eyes slit open but for just a few moments, that few moments I held her in my arms, everything escaped and the only thing I saw was her. That is pure happiness.

Baby, I wish I could carry you now when you need me at this moment. Like Johnny Depp in the corpses bride, today with this hand I will lift your sorrows. Your cup will never be empty, for I will be your wine. With this candle, I will light your way into darkness. With this post, I ask you to be mine. Today when you're feeling down or upset about anything, my hand is here to lift you up. What you need, the most important things in life, I will be and today when you need me, I am always here for you. And when you are lost or feel lonely, I will be your candle lighting any darkness you may see. And with this post, I ask you to share my today and everyday with me.

Today, when I drove to the clinic just less than half an hour earlier, the sun was beautiful and I thought about you. How difficult it must be to drive to somewhere you don't want to go and I am here with you baby. Then and later when you need to be at another day of training, I am with you every second and every step of the way. So don't feel down or upset about anything, I love you and I'm here for you.

Looking forward to just having time after today to rest and be with you. I miss you right now and you're everything on my mind. Can't wait to see you soon baby and I'm going to rest and make sure that I'm healed so that I can take care of you in return when we meet. Today is beautiful baby and hold my hand as we see how beautiful today will be.

PS. Bie, you're beautiful today and like yesterday and everyday, you are my reasons. You are all my reasons. Miss you so much.

what we have is today

Because that's what people do. They leap, and hope to God they can fly, because otherwise you just drop like a rock, wondering the whole way down, why in the *hell* did I jump? But here I am, Sarah, falling, and there's only one person who makes me feel like I can fly... That's you.

~ Will Smith, Hitch



Feel so sleepy today. My lion is also a walking zombie today if not for the coffee. My baby lion is so sleepy today and she's going to have to go to practice later and her motivation's dropping by the day. And although I was never her strongest supporter to get started on her stage play at the beginning, I am always her lamb who will stand by her. Today, my lion is in need of motivation to keep going and she is going to have all she needs in me because her lamb never lets her fall and he's writing her this story today.

One day a father and his rich family took his son on a trip to the country with the firm purpose to show him how poor people can be. They spent a day and a night on the farm of a very poor family. When they got back from their trip, the father asked his son, "How was the trip?" "Very good Dad!" "Did you see how poor people can be?" the father asked. "Yeah!" "And what did you learn?"

The son answered, "I saw that we have a dog at home, and they have four. We have a pool that reaches to the middle of the garden; they have a creek that has no end. We have imported lamps in the garden; they have the stars. Our patio reaches to the front yard; they have a whole horizon." When the little boy was finished, his father was speechless. His son added, "Thanks, Dad, for showing me how 'poor' we are!"

I see everyday like the son of that rich man. I may not have the greatest treasures, the smartest brains or the most handsome eyes or face among men. But it doesn't really matter what this silly lamb thinks. What matters is if this lion of his sees that his greatest treasure is in everything her, that the greatest jewel is her smile, that the greatest diamonds are her eyes and the silk of the world can't compare to her hair. Or does she know that I may not be the smartest but all my mind is on her, every single second my mine is thinking about her. From how to make her smile to how to make our today perfect. And maybe does she know that I may not have the most beautiful eyes but she's the only thing I see and my face is the only thing I hope she will see too?

Maybe that's all important but more important than that is does she know that she's got this silly lamb all over here. On this day that she's tired, this lamb who is so imperfect will carry her and do whatever it takes to lift a bit of her tiredness and weary from her? That everyday, there is nothing more beautiful than her being happy? It is in this hope that I hope she knows that I am always here for her. And with this blog as witness, I will hold her hand with every walk and I will carry her pass every bridge. Today is beautiful and she is the reason. She's all my reasons. I love you baby.

PS. Bie, "wake up" because I love you and we have today to paint beautiful. We have play practice today and I "see" how beautiful you are. Perform for me as I clap on this silent end for the world's greatest performer. I love you and baby, you're my superstar!

today and everyday, I love you...

I dream about being with you forever.

~ Twilight



It was so hard waking up to not see you around. I opened my eyes to Wednesday calling your name and feeling this slight cold inside me that you're not by my side. I had to whisper I love you to get out of bed, dragging myself out to see you. It was a bit cold this morning and driving to your place seemed so far away. I wouldn't say I drove like a madman but it was close.

Holding the steering wheel in both hands, was just thinking about what you told me last night. You asked me to think about how it would be, if I could imagine how life would be for you without me. You asked me how would it feel like if I suddenly stopped loving you or if I would just decide to walk away. It's not really a happy thought and I admit it's something that I never thought of before.

In the movie "The King and I", the king who could not love this foreign women said, "In these dreams I've loved you so that by now I think I know what it's like to be loved by you. I will love being loved by you." Being in love with you and being loved by you, there is no dream or life that I have that is not you and I know you're afraid that this might change in the future. But in a dream world or the real, there really is no possibility that I could think of that you do not exist in.

And then knowing you, you will probably think but what if and why do I think it will not happen if I'm so confident.

For your question number one: There is no what if baby simply because of the same reason you love me. Do you see yourself loving someone else because of any other reason? Because someone else is more handsome? Because he has more material wealth? Because he is a better person? I wish we all had answers why we love someone but that reason exists for a reason and it does not vanish just like that. I love you and I have no reasons to stop loving you. So this scenario or possibility will never come to pass unless you too don't want this anymore.

For your question number two: I am confident because I only see one person in my world and that person is you. I only care about how you feel and it's really because I love you so much that it pains me to even think of losing you. I am confident. I am steady. I am sure. Like Preston Burke. Because you are the only reason I need to be contented with life. You are reason enough to smile. You are reason enough to be able to smile at life. You are all my reasons.

PS. Bie, today's beautiful and you're definitely beautiful. Watching today with you is so beautiful and I can't wait to see you again at lunch. So hungry for you.