Today and everyday, there is only you

" Fate exists but it can only take you so far, because once you're there, it's up to you to make it happen."

~ Can't hardly wait



Today, my lion woke up with another nightmare that she is not the most attractive woman for a lamb. Of course telling her that she was silly is not going to help anyone. So here's this. I write this to remind you that you are the only one my eyes want to see, the only person my mind would bother waking up to meet and the only wife, I wake up counting the days until it all becomes real.

It's another 353 days to go and each day I tick one day off my list towards the happiest day of my life. Baby, it's okay to be scared because I sure am so scared to lose you too. I'm here to say, baby, it's okay for you to be the voice I wake up wanting to hear, the face I can't wait to kiss and the warmth I can never let go in the morning. If there is any need for convincing, be convinced that today I love you more than yesterday and it doesn't end until the day we both hold our last breathe.

I believe in fate and in destiny and I also believe in making things happen for us. Yes, I believe life is a combination of both. Because we decide how we want our life to turn out. We're walking this road and the only path I want to take is to be happy with you everyday. It's been a while since I last wrote and tomorrow, we're going to see our wedding planner that we both won :) we're going to share our plans on how we plan to be happy for the rest of our lives. Yes, I'm excited to share and make it better baby.

Everyday seems to be passing us by and thank you for letting me be by your side. I know sometimes you do get worried about some things but trust in your lamb. There is only one lion for a lamb and one lamb for a lion. That's exactly what I wrote for you in your note today. In so many ways, what it actually means is that you are perfect to me and you complete me and I only hope that I appear perfect and you feel I complete you too. Today my blue lion is perfect and your smile dazzled me from the moment I opened my eyes.

You started with nightmares but I'm here to be the sweetest dream of today. I love you baby and today is beautiful, always, because of you. Lamb is sleepy today but just watch me gallop for you. Gallop, gallop ~ baa baa ~

PS. Bie, I always like your blue dress and the way you sashay while walking in blue. You're so beautiful. Love you.

Waking up to Perfection on a Wednesday

"I believe there's a place where the restless souls wander, burdened by the weight of their own sadness. They wait for a chance to set the wrong things right. Only then can they be reunited with the ones they love. Sometimes, a crow shows them the way; because sometimes, love is stronger than death."

~ City of Angels



Today we both woke up lazy to get to work. I think I rather be still in sheets hugging my lion. I rate my lion's hugability at a ten out of ten. Been trying to keep track of our progress on our wedding through this blog and the latest development is something to shout about. Ever since finalising the venue and photographers, we actually won 10K in an online contest and things are definitely looking up.



Nothing to complain about as this is definitely the icing on an already delicious recipe for a wedding to remember. We wrote in total four entries and one got us the top prize and here we are with a wedding planner and a beach wedding to come.



Our wedding entry was really simple and I'm convinced that it was her perfect look when I tried to "nerd" kiss her that won us the grand prize. What are the odds? We made it all the way and on the day of announcement, which happened to fall on Halloween's Day and were pleasantly shocked. I remember waiting for her to get back home under the tree and there was a slight breeze as I turned off my engine and held the handphone in my hand. We were on the phone and then this SMS came in. We were in that moment, one of the five shortlisted couples. In fact our candidate number was number one .



It was a mad rush to the party and three hours later we ended up like this. A winning smile and a winning entry. Lion's face upon the announcement was pure classic and it was akin to the Oscar announcement. We were in pure happyness shock and that simply was the moment to remember. That victory picture with Nathasha was simply unbelievable, now that we have a garden, church, hotel and beach wedding. Can't ask for more. I wanted to write a more enchanting story or a fairytale to describe the moment but no fairytale or created story could match what really happened.

Having said that, we have 367 days to go until our wedding. Appreciate each step we take along the way and this is shaping up to be an adventure to reflect on for a lifetime. Baby, thank you for walking this journey with me, for taking the time, the patience and all the love in the world to marry me and write this chapter of life together. Maybe today is not too bad to wake up to. Waking up to perfection on a Wednesday.

PS. Bie, I love you and today and everyday of our lives, you insist on making it perfect. Walking this road is simply beautiful. This is our moment.

listening to my heart..nothing is perfect without u...

"Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? I say fall head over heels. Find someone you love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart."

~ Meet Joe Black



Some things in life are the only things worth living, breathing and looking for. And when I think of these things, I think of your smile in the morning when you look for me before you get up, I think of you lazing and gently lying down on me on your couch and I think of when you make me ribena or milo at night. These things are worth living, breathing and looking forward to. Imagine how much more lies ahead with the trips we want to make, the moments we want to create, those are special. But I wake up everyday looking forward to these "special" moments with you.

I think I'm pampered that way. That these two days when I wake up to not be able to see these, I feel this emptiness, this incompleteness that maybe I'm really spoiled by this happyness called you. I like to think that I'm not a selfish person but when it comes to this happyness, I want to be selfish and I want to want everything about you. Not selfish to the point that I want everything you and everything you do, but I'm selfish about this happyness and joy with you. And that is something I want to protect and keep.

I woke up today to knowing that you are tired, maybe bullied and not having enough rest. And when you do not have enough rest, you get easily sick and feel unwell :( all I want to do today is make you smile, protect you and wait for you to come back. Today is beautiful baby and it's beautiful again because of you. I'm going to start today by painting you this story and I hope you will like it. I don't have many strengths but many this canvas can be this beautiful smile for you.

During the reign of the Han, there was this elderly couple who lived in the outskirts of Longzhong, in today's Hubei province. Old Man Chen was a farmer who toiled the lands and the peaceful surroundings was a blessing. Old Woman Chen was hospitable by nature and both lived in a tavern which they had owned for many years. They both longed for a child but were never blessed with one. They looked for comfort in passing guests. It was in this instance that they both found a crying baby in their tavern one day. Unblemished and wrapped only in cloth in one of the rooms, they took it to be a sign from heaven and raised the child as their own. Naming her, Si Chi.

Many years passed and the child grew up to be a beautiful lady. But although fair of face, Si Chi was never one who was contented with all the expectations of being a lady and she wanted to always walk that much further everyday, see that next house beyond the trees and wonder lay beyond the next road. The couple knew that they did not have long and they were worried for Si Chi. It so happened one day on a rainy night with thunder and storm, that an injured wandering traveler would knock on the doors. Afraid of bandits and the safety of Si Chi due to the darkness, the old couple shouted for him to search for another inn.

Dismayed the traveler was about to leave when the doors opened and Si Chi was at the door gesturing for him to hide from the rain. Overjoyed at the hospitality, he stepped in cautiously, gracious for the kindness shown. Introducing himself as Lam Bo, a scholar on the way to the capital, Si Chi was mesmerised and wanted to know more about his journeys. The old couple were suspicious but slowly warmed up at the good nature of Lam Bo. Lam Bo was traveling to retake the annual exams in the capital but chanced upon bandits and had suffered injuries while escaping.

While recovering, Lam Bo would tell Si Chi stories about his wanderings and travels every night. She would listen and smile at all the adventures often interjecting and asking questions. In time, feelings would grow too beneath the flicker of candle flames. With time, the wounds healed and Lam Bo was bound to leave for the exams. Thanking the old couple for their hospitality, Lam Bo left with a heavy heart and left the farewell for Si Chi at the last. Shedding a tear, Lam Bo mentioned that he would come back upon finishing the exams as a scholar and that every night on the road, Si Chi would be that lonely companion in his mind.

Si Chi promised to always be there for him and Lam Bo began his final trek to the capital. Every night, Lam Bo would write a note and let it flow to the winds. It spoke of this love that had blossomed in the tavern and he hoped to let his love fly every night back to Si Chi. The exams went on for a month and upon finishing, the candidates were required to stay in the capital to await the results. Lam Bo was announced as on the three finalist scholars and was bound to take up post in the capital. Overjoyed, Lam Bo requested that the celebratory parade pass the tavern. On the way back, he passed the taverns only to find that Si Chi had already left on a journey of her own and she promised to return after 3 years.

Lam Bo was devastated and rejecting all worldly fame and material, left the post and left to search for her in his journeys. They both traveled their path and never met, only to arrive again at the tavern. There Lam Bo and Si Chi finally met under the gaze of the candles.

"Why did you leave?"

"I never left..I was with you. I kept my word. I never left you."

"But you were not here."

"I went looking high and low to learn things. To be able to be myself"

"But the one I love is you and the one right here"

"I never changed. I saw things and I knew that the only place I wanted to be is right here with you. I love you too"

With that they remained in the tavern. No one knows what happened after that. Some say they left on another journey. Some say they continued to stay at the tavern and took over from Old Man Chen and Old Women Chen. But the thing for sure was they stayed in love for all time.

PS. Bie, listening to your voice on the phone is pure happyness. I love you. I'm here waiting and you never left.

galloping for a lion on a Wednesday

"It is at times like this that I know what my purpose is in life. I am here to love you, to hold you in my arms, to protect you. I am here to learn from you and receive your love in return. I am here because there is no other place to be."

~ Message in a Bottle



I love you. I love you to me means that you are more important than me. I love you means that when you are not around, not only will I behave but my heart is missing this huge chunk and it's all because of you. But it's okay because my heart was never whole before you anyways. So I am waiting. Waiting right here to be complete. I guess I too am spoiled, spoiled to always have you to love, to hold and to cherish. I live everyday not taking things for granted and on days that you are not around, I do feel that a part of me is not living.

Why are you there? You asked. Maybe you are there so that I can miss you, and always know how much you mean to be and how I can't live without you. You are there so that when you get back, a lamb can give you all the TLC and tenderness that a lion deserves. Maybe you are there so that missing each other means something. But I know one thing, that every second you're not here, I keep that memory, hold it and wait for you to come back then pamper you like no tomorrow.

Bie, I know you're tired from the entire night travel and you will be exhausted after the party tonight. So I am going to remind you that your lamb will always be here for you. No matter what or where you are, I will always be here for you. I know you like stories so here's another simple one that I hope you will like. This is not a real story but I hope this one that I write based on my imagination will entertain you for today :)

Magena, was a young girl who wandered around the hills and regions of the west for her name to the tribes meant moon. And she was as delightful as the moon on any pale night. She was young and often wandered far from her hut searching for beauty and joy. She was betrothed to Mapiya who was nicknamed after the sky. For he was plain and simple but he always whispered to Magena how he would complete her for in all beauty, he was the sky that held her true. For when she was missing, the sky would long for the moon. The tribes lived in bliss and happiness and spent many nights under the stars counting their blessings.

Now not all among the tribes were of good nature and of kind heart, Taima named after thunder was a jealous tribesmen and he often lusted after Mapiya. As she wandered alone sometimes unwatched by Mapiya, Taima would follow close by eyeing any opportunity for himself. Taima watched day by day and he understood the patterns of her travel and he convinced himself fueled by his lust to capture her. Setting his plans, Taima ventured and pretended to be of injury on the path that Magena would travel. Magena falling for the trick inquired only to be captured and taken away to the mountains where Taima knew no tribesmen would dare venture.

Mapiya was worried for Magena and searched high and low behind every valley and hill after days of her gone missing. Magena who was trapped longed for Mapiya and dreaded Taima. Taima would woo her day by day promising the sun and the stars only to be turned away. Magena would look longingly out of her capture pining for Mapiya. With each passing day, the patience of Taima would grow thinner as he heard Magena cry for Mapiya.

Mapiya chanced upon Taima at the mountains while Taima was gathering wood in the nearby forests of the mountain. Finding it odd for Taima to be acting so suspiciously so far away from the tribe, suspecting the worse, Mapiya tailed Taima back to the enclosure and capture tent of Magena. Waiting in patience for nightfall, Mapiya silently crept in the still darkness of the night to peek into the enclosure. Behold, lo did he see his fair Magena weeping into the night. Enraged, Mapiya seethed and bit his lips in anger at the betrayal of Taima. Silently lifting the locks, he whispered to Magena to escape. Overjoyed, Magena leapt into Mapiya's arms as they crept around the enclosure to head back to safety.

Taima who was listening behind the doors felt it odd that there was no usual crying that night and thought maybe his luck and fate had turned. After some time of rejoicing at his good turn, Taima decided to look into Magena. Shocked at her chamber being empty, he searched for signs only to find the broken locks and made haste after the trail of Magena and Mapiya. Catching up, he shouted in anger with a spear telling them to go no further. Mapiya wishing to duel to the death was made to stay still by Magena who could not afford to lose him. Shedding a tear, Magena turned to face Mapiya, "Will you stay with me for a lifetime?" "Always"

With that they leapt and the Gods took pity on them and caught them from falling into the cliff and set them up in the air. And they said, "Magena, for you are truly of compelling beauty and for others to never desire you, may you show your faces in stages by the day and only appear at night?" At this Magena protested, "How then can I be with my heart's desire, Mapiya?" To this, the gods replied, "Mapiya, will you spend this eternity holding Mapiya and being loyal to her alone?" To this, Mapiya answered, "Yes. For all eternity". It was thus that the moon and the sky were made.



Taima angered at this favour of the gods, turned to the imps and they in turn made him thunder. For thunder and the sky would never share the same likeness. One sought to uphold the blue and calmness and the other to grow and shout of terror and anger. But for all eternity, Magena and Mapiya will always have each other.

~~ The End ~~

Hope you like this story bie :) Today, is beautiful and you are beautiful. I am smiling for you and I hope with this story and this post, you too will smile for me. Another day will pass and you will be back soon. Lamb is waiting. Waiting for a lion. And they will always have each other. For an eternity. Writing our happily ever after, one day, one step at a time.

PS. Bie, I miss you. I miss you, miss you so so much. Love you baby.