Love = You

As we grow older together, as we continue to change with age, there is one thing that will never change. . . I will always keep falling in love with you.

~ Karen Clodfelder


There is this story that happened many moons ago, of a lion and a lamb. It is said there are many of such stories in many lands. But this one comes from under the land of three moons, where it was more dark then light during the passing days.

The lion and lamb has come together after many trials and again that was another story to be told in another time. This story happened in the eleventh month of the year and they were happily going about their lives but the lion had recently taken to viewing the stars late into the night. Fascinated with the sky above and kept watch until the wee hours of the morning. And her hunting paid a dear price as she was late to rise. She was tired easily by the end of days but would still crawl out to look at the stars.

The lamb was at first oblivious to these changes and merely sat by her side to watch the stars and often rode around the den to his own delight. But one morning, he arose to find her tired and suffering from too little rest. The lamb baa-ed in worry and cuddled close to her. She was gently rising and the day was growing old. But she still rose and went out to hunt.

Hunted she did while the little lamb rested in the den. Filled with anxiety and worry, the lamb scribbled on the walls messages for the lion:

1) Get enough shut eye so that when I look into your eyes, they're so clear that the only thing I can see in them is me
2) Hunt with patience and it's only just a living so treasure all the small things matter more. Like your smile on a Friday
3) Today, I missed you so I carved your name with all the love I could find and still it doesn't explain how much you mean to me
4) Baby, I love you

With that, the lamb rested and ate his wheat while patiently waiting for his lion to return.

Perhaps this is not everyone's conventional story but this is a story of a lamb worried about his lion. He loves her very much with everything that he has and he only wants the best for her. So he writes this note, only for her; with just one message: I Love You.

PS. Bie, it is often said that we were given two hands to hold, two legs to walk, two eyes to see, two ears to listen, but why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find. I am lucky I found mine in you. Love you bie

Today..I write about You

If I asked you about love, you'd probably quote me a sonnet.
But you've never looked at a woman and been totally vulnerable,
known someone that could level you with her eyes. Feeling like God put an angel on Earth just for you, who could rescue you from the depths of Hell.
And you wouldn't know what it's like to be her angel.
To have that love for her, be there forever, through anything, through cancer.

~ Good Will Hunting

Today I write these words as your husband. I know it's not often that I write notes for you anymore. But every morning when I peek out from under the sheets, I write you my first "I Love You" of the day. Looking at you feeling uncomfortable today, it makes me uncomfortable about you too and I can not help but worry about you. I walk every moment today, with you. Always baby.

Just finished my lunch and wanted you to know that I did imagine you sitting by my side eating my food and I trying to eat yours. Looking back, it still amazes me how we got here. I feel lucky that everyday I wake up to the person I love most in the world. In so many quotes I have used in these writings for you, they always say the same thing; you never know love until you love that someone more than yourselves. You are important to me in so many more ways than I am important to myself. I just want to write this note today, telling you that I love you baby.

In the times that you are frustrated at work today, I hope you know you have my love wrapped around your heart and my thoughts holding your hand through today. I keep all these sweet thoughts to myself about you because you are simply the sweetest thing that I know. Perhaps these 2 days off at home is a good break, to miss you and know how much the times you are with me mean so much. So I'm going to be waiting for you here until you get home.

Love you baby and know that you are the only thing on my mind.

PS. Today is beautiful baby, because of you. You are beautiful, and you make my life so beautiful too.

Baby I love you

When I see your face..there's nothing I would change. You're simply amazing, just the way you are...

~ Bruno Mars

Baby..writing this post for you as you're tying flowers for Ena and YC's wedding. Just looking at the sweetest stars that God could have drawn in my sky, how privileged it is to be able to wake up to you everyday of our lives.

Am busy with work and thoughts lately, but want you to know in the midst of all the noise, you are the only thing that makes sense and continue to paint me smiles each day. Am taking this little bit of time before we go to church just to record this down; that you are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen and you still amaze me every moment by taking my breath away.

It's a like dark and gloomy outside but still sunny in my heart just looking at you now. It's strange how looking at you as my wife only means that every day of our lives, I will do more to earn your love and your heart as your husband. Can't wait for my birthday surprise and I do know you want that camera very much and your husband is indeed planning to get it for you. What my baby wants, my baby gets.

I love you baby and today, if I did not mention it out loud, you're beautiful. This is my note to you. It's simple but it's our story. Write with me. Always.

PS. Bie, each day, each moment with you is my greatest treasure of that day. Muacksss

The Most Beautiful Day

Most couples begin their vows by describing each other as the clear sky after the rain; or something like that. Mine begins with a question, "What Are We?" It has been one year, seven months and fourteen days since you last asked me this. I know this not because I am a nerd, but because I remember my promise to you that broke all your rules.

Today, I stand before the sweetest star that God could have created in my skies. My hands are sure, my hands are steady, as I write this chapter for both of us called, marriage.

So what are we? Apparently, you're the woman of my dreams and I'm the man of yours. On the days that you are most ugly and grotesque, on the days that every moment of you takes my breathe away, everyday of our lives, I promise you; me.

My Solemn Vow, Gardens, Cyberview Lodge (The Sixth of November 2010)



It seems like an age since we've been together and yet our journey has only just begun.

No words explain it best than these beads underneath your shoes on the most beautiful day of our lives. It begins right here, after so many days of waiting for it to happen. It is here, it is now, it is our forever.



That morning, I woke up to this song in mind. The same song that appeared on the day that you turned to me so slowly and whispered my first "I Love You" from your lips. This serene song of Lathika's theme. I rubbed my eyes, half awake and embracing that finally the day had arrived. Gently, I picked up the phone to call you and within seconds you answered. This silent wave of calm swept past me as I cracked my first smile of the day. This day I knew would be ours; I love us :)



Standing hand in hand, I remember brushing past your tears to feel you. Perhaps everyone felt that it was a natural reaction for me to protect you and wipe away the tears. It was not. It was simply me, reaching out to you, letting you know that this moment, this emotion that overwhelmed you, it has also overwhelmed me as well. That this moment, we share at the altar, will be the first foundation stones we build in our marriage. You are a huge part of me, in fact the whole of me and I hope I will be the same of yours.



Standing before God and man, we made a vow. My heart would always belong to you and before the altar of God, I promise you me as you did to me. I always believed that the vow before God is only testament to what our hearts speak. It is a symbol to profess what our hearts feel first as a custom, as a religion and more importantly, as a language of love. I know you do not believe that love has to be professed but that is simply what a wedding is. My statement to you; that I will always love you, cherish you and treasure you all the days of our lives. In every imperfection of you, you are the perfection of me.

Like Jack Nicholson, you make me wanna be a better man.





Walking out as man and wife. I clutched your hand. There was no firmness, only that touch of you reaffirming me that our dreams were coming true as we made our first walk as man and wife. Every step was a step to the beginning of our marriage, every step we make forward, I promise you is a step we will always make together in life.

I always think that I could do things alone. I feel that it's not about doing things alone because I could anymore. But I feel that this life would be so much more meaningful with your hand in mine as we traverse the many things before us. And because of you, everything just seems all the more beautiful.



All the little details that we poured our blood, sweat and tears into for over a year just manifested itself and took shape in all these little things on our wedding day. I remember you scolding me and mocking me for cutting these movie tickets and love shaped tags. I remember trying so hard although my hands were too big and clumsy to hold the scissors. And how I would do my best to cut those laces for you on your night dress. I know that I was not perfect or even decent, but maybe all these small things we did together made you smile as we journeyed each day closer to our wedding.

Inspite of all the mess I created, it was simply perfect to every detail on the day. Each small detail added so much to what we wanted. We never saw it as a whole but simply did all we could in every detail with the same love we had for each other. It was beautiful. La vita e bella, baby. Life is beautiful because of us.







Walking with you out of the car to the first surprise we planned for the night, this simply set the tone for the evening. From the moment, we stepped out of the car, I knew we were going to enjoy every moment we could. Surprisingly, I never felt nervous at all the entire day and as the car trod into the garden, staring out to the waiting crowd, I was geared up to complete the day and make it as beautiful as I could. Maybe because it was because we both waited so long for this to happen, or maybe it was you that always calmed me down. But I was sure it was love that was guiding us the entire day. Love brought us together and it kept us with so much happiness at the start of our marriage.

I know you felt this wedding is so important as the first start to our marriage. I admit that I felt that the day would not determine it but rather us. What the marriage did, was give us so many chances for us to go through this experience together. To see things together, walk this walk together and to find meaning in all the things we do; from the small the the gigantic. You mean the world to me.





Our photographer spent an entire paragraph on her blog wondering on the fate of the doves we released. What I remembered, was us holding on to the birds spluttering with fear and excitement. My eyes met yours and I smiled. I felt like we were so much like this birds eager to fly off to see the world together. So raring to get ahead and paint pictures of our world. The world is ours to see and experience and all I want to do is live this life with you. My heart; my heart; beats for you.



We walked in to an unsuspecting crowd. No one knew what to expect and we definitely were going to keep the fun going on. No one knew this was actually the start to the night. As your dress sashayed next to me, there was no hesitation, nothing but just us and the world watching.

I can't dance but I remembered how you smiled and simply moved to the music. And it began.



And we rocked the stage!!!



Actually *we (girls and us) rocked the stage!!!!!!!! The girls were simply special to us. Wanting to see the night a success, they were simply marvelous on stage; putting in hours and hours of practice into wanting to make it perfect. We love you for all this and more (Linda wants to adopt all of you)!



And the real party started..the family got it going and the dance stage was all theirs. They were simply what we want our wedding to stand for; a good time and all the love in the world. As I write this, I am filled with so much gratitude. First to God for making everything perfect and everything we could have asked for. And to our family and friends, we stand humbled in the presence of so much love and happiness. As we made our speech, a part of me wanted to reach out and say that it would have been lovely for my grandfather to have seen us that day. I realised then that he was indeed watching over us, smiling that old grin of his, the grandfather I remembered would have wanted the best for me. Watching me grow up, he was always looking out for me. I would have been so proud if he could smile seeing us on our most memorable day of our lives. I say a little prayer for you, ah kong as I write this, hoping you're watching us with smiles.



Everyday since then, I wake up to the smiles of you and with you, there is no end to the happiness that I can see. This blog has been my canvass to paint how beautiful the world is and it has been with us from the start of that one single question to each day we have gone through together to this pinnacle of our wedding. Do you see what I see? Happiness. You are my happiness in every way man could have created a definition for happiness. And you are my meaning, in every way possible. What began as a story of me, finding for something which I never knew what until I met you, to the most beautiful day of our lives,

To see your face, to hear your voice
And oh, to touch you is a dream come true
So I'm standing here, with my hand held out
Knowing that your love will never fade, I stand amazed without a doubt

And I wanna hear your voice, in the morning when I rise
I think I know I'm just a normal man, only made of sand except when you're by my side
Will you love me, teach me, don't leave me I pray
And when I, and I'm thinking of the times
Your hands in mine, together we will stay
You made me better today
Better than I was before
And now my heart can rest and I will search no more
You made me better today,

My heart has wings
Oh you take me away
And every prayer I've ever prayed was answered today
So I'm standing here, with my hand held out
Knowing that my love will never leave
My hearts on my sleeve and now I believe

And I wanna hear your voice in the morning when I rise
I think I know I'm just a normal man, only made of sand except when you're by my side
Will you love me, teach me, don't leave me I pray
And when I, and I'm thinking of the times
Your hands in mine, together we will stay
You made me better today
Better than I was before
And now my heart can rest and I will search no more
You made me better today

I stand proclaimed, true love is here to stay
I stand proclaimed, forever starts today
Today...
You made me better today
Than I was before
And now my heart can rest and I will search no more
Cuz you made me better today, than I was before
And now my heart can rest
And I will search no more
You made me better today
Today...
Made me better today.

I love you baby.



PS. Baby, I will always be committed to this love that binds us, to walk each moment with you and to me, you are my everything; my world and everything there is in it. I love you.