Monday Honesty

"Every step I have taken since I was born, is a step closer to you"

~ Message in a Bottle



Like Garrett wrote to Theresa in the last letter he wrote in a bottle, that he had found a new love, and that love was her, a love he must fight for, so too do I write this post today that baby. My busy baby bee, you're a love worth fighting for, every reason worth smiling for and every love worth living a lifetime for. I looked at your closed eyes last night and I know that I have this to say, that we should always be honest with each other.

I do not think todays post will warm yours like the creative creations of last week but allow me just today to be honest and let my heart talk to you. So let me write you a message in a bottle to your heart.

To state the obvious, I can't swim to which you were shocked when I first told you but here I am learning to dive to see the underwater world with you.



I dislike the way I can't swim that I don't know how to breathe under H2O that I look like an idiot.



I dislike the way I wear my muscles out just to learn how to fin the proper way while both you and Nick can already fin.

I dislike the way I slow down the classes just so I won't swallow water like a fish.



I hate the way water works its way into my mask and I keep failing to get into the deeps.

I hate the way it seems im making a fuss over every single difficult exercise which simply wastes time in the pool and for making you cold for staying with me.

I hate making Nick and you worry about my safety in the open sea.

I hate it for making you feel so bad about something that you are so passionate about.

And because of all this, I like the way you smile when I do not give up after swallowing water at least 15 times for each exercise.



I like the way you look at me and hold my hand while we do the exercises.

I like the way you are happy because we're doing this together and for funny episodes in the pool involving secondary life support!

I like the way Nick cuts me some slack because I work hard and keep going at it without pausing or being afraid and you just keep swimming around trying not to add pressure.

I like the way I surprise everyone by completing all the exercises even when I can't swim, have a lot of cuts, bruises and I breathe like a Ferrari.

I love the way we are doing this together and the way you wait for me even when its late and people have all left the pool.

I love the way you do not give up on me although all the odds are stacked against me.



I love the way you believe in our love and keep putting me number one eventhough this is something that you've put on hold for at least six years.

I love the way you said there is no other way than me after going through this together.

I love doing this not because I want to but because its something that can make both of us smile.

I love it that were taking our relationship to another level and by going through all this together because its definitely going to last a lifetime baby.



Most of all, I love you baby.

You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.
You'd be like Heaven to touch.
I wanna hold you so much.
At long last love has arrived
And I thank God I'm alive.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

I love you, baby,
And if it's quite alright,
I need you, baby,
To warm a lonely night.
I love you, baby.
Trust in me when I say:
Oh, pretty baby,
Don't bring me down, I pray.
Oh, pretty baby, now that I found you, stay
And let me love you, baby.
Let me love you.

PS. Bie, I'm holding your hand on a Monday. Its just the start of our list and our lives.