the right smile on a Tuesday

" Don’t say we aren't right for each other, the way I see it is… We aren't right for anyone else.”

~Cutting Edge



When I miss you, I listen to music or look at pictures of you. Not to remind me of you but to make me feel as if I’m with you. It makes me forget the distance and capture you. You are there, a few thousand miles away and the way I miss you should not be measured in miles or hours but it should be measured by how much my life is missing a whole part of it because of you.

Just remember baby, that somewhere there is someone that dreams of your smile, and finds in your presence that life is worthwhile. So when you are lonely, remember it’s true that someone somewhere is thinking of you. When you suddenly sneeze in the heat of Hangzhou, you should know that theres a fool thinking about you. If you think missing me is hard, then you should try missing you. Yes, I am a fool for you in so many ways. Yes, I have been accused by you of sweet talking you at the most unexpected times. But also yes, this is the whole truth, I love you berry berry much and I think about you all the time.

I've actually been writing this for the last thirty minutes, getting distracted and all that in between. Maybe its also difficult to write when you're not around. I find it hard to find meaningful words and challenging to build beautiful sentences. Like you, I too do not know how to smile. For there is none. But baby, we got to smile. Simply because we have each other. You are on foreign ground in a place some say is the most beautiful in China. Let me be the reason why you should be smiling today because you definitely are mine. Smile because we are still walking this path even a few thousand miles apart. Smile because it hurts when we can not see each other and when we both mean so much to each other. Smile baby because I love you and you know its true.

This morning started gloomy, the cars zipped by because its the school holidays and traffic in notorious Cheras is surprisingly taking a break. Maybe the traffic gods have mercy on me, and decided not to add to my sadness when you're away. There were no chirping birds or open skies though, maybe I wasn't paying enough attention. I sat in bumblebee today and felt a slow tingle of cold up my spine. I could imagine your hand on my gear changing them as I hit my clutch. I would look to you and you would smile. Today I spent five minutes looking at where you would sit. I could almost touch you baby. And for the first time today baby, I smiled.

PS. Bie, even when there are no reasons, let me be all your reasons to smile. Luv you and let it last a lifetime because I will always smile for you like you will for me.