Showing posts with label perfect. Show all posts
Showing posts with label perfect. Show all posts

Monday, May 25, 2009

you are all my reasons

"La vita e bella; la vita e amore. -- Life is beautiful; life is love."
from the movie

Life Is Beautiful



My eyes are blurry, teary, worn out and dry. My right is visibly swollen and my left slightly so. I can barely open my eyes together for more than five minutes. And all I see is you~ You are so beautiful.

She told me to take a rest and that she hates to be all my reasons today. She wanted something short and sweet. Can we settle for just love and just right? If our lives were a chick flick, she would be that hot chick that everyone likes and I would be that geeky guy that no one notices and steal her from the other hot dude right at the end. Now, why am I saying this? Because some guys just never have the stuff that heroes are made of. And then theres people like me.

I have shown her that I am weak and weaker than I should be. I have failed many times. Been a punk when I should be sensitive and despite all this, shes still so concerned about my every feeling. When I look into her eyes, I know what kind of man I wanna be. The hardest thing is loving someone and having the courage to let them love you back. I am scared at times that she reverts to being chicken shit and less sensitive constantly wandering mind. But what I am even more scared of is that she knows how pathetic, insanely and obscenely in love I am with her despite all my failings.

Todays beautiful. I know my eyes can't tell me much about what the world looks like today but it doesn't matter. Its not what you see that determines how perfect a day is. Nor is it the weather. Nor is it about how the world treats me. Its not how good I feel that determines how happy I am or how perfect the day is, although it does play a huge part in making a day perfect. The injection of love she gave me is the perfect start to the day. My day is perfect when I see and sense her love. She means the world to me. Yes, I can barely see and I am kinda weak with the way she needs to be with me now and drive me to work, but its a perfect day. Baby, you are simply perfect and I love you.

Today like all days, you are my reasons, my only reason. I am here, a sad and not very healthy man, but a man who knows how to love you. So baby, when you read this, smile for me please. Yours means the world to me. With you, life is beautiful, la vita e bella.

PS. Bie, do you hear me? Talking to you? Across the oceans, over the open skies, oh my, baby, I'm trying. I may be half blind but you're oh so beautiful.

Monday, March 30, 2009

I messed up

"What is her surname?"

"Evil"

What is her last name?"

"Janet"

And with that, I was connected to her hotel room. But along the way, I messed up and alerted the whole world. Racked up a huge phone bill and had to harass the hotel staff in broken Mandarin to be connected to your room which probably shocked your room mate and made you embarassed. For that baby, I'm truly sorry that I made a complete ass out of myself. I would like to say I was tired and could not think clearly but the reason I panicked was simply because I was too worried for you and I think I seriously over reacted. Sorry baby.

With the apology being made official, that was not the reason why I'm writing this post. I'm writing this to let you know that I'm smiling today because I know that you're watching. And I promise to live everyday to the fullest until you get back because you complete me and make my life perfect. You complement what I'm not and make me want to be a better man.

And I want you to also smile for me because:-
1) You should be and deserve to be the luckiest girl on planet earth
2) I'm also watching that you smile and nothing means more than you smiling because of me
3) Because when you smile, I smile more and you're my international weather channel

I don't have much pics to share with you but I'm hoping that you like the ones I took below on the way to work.







Hope this warms you on a cold day. Ticking off the days until you get back and KL becomes "sunny" again.

PS. Baby, I love you (sorry Cecilia Ahern, just had to steal your book title) today, everyday, and I hope if you allow me to for forever. Have I told you baby that you look wonderful today, because I see you too everytime I close my eyes and you're perfect.