Today and everyday, there is only you

" Fate exists but it can only take you so far, because once you're there, it's up to you to make it happen."

~ Can't hardly wait



Today, my lion woke up with another nightmare that she is not the most attractive woman for a lamb. Of course telling her that she was silly is not going to help anyone. So here's this. I write this to remind you that you are the only one my eyes want to see, the only person my mind would bother waking up to meet and the only wife, I wake up counting the days until it all becomes real.

It's another 353 days to go and each day I tick one day off my list towards the happiest day of my life. Baby, it's okay to be scared because I sure am so scared to lose you too. I'm here to say, baby, it's okay for you to be the voice I wake up wanting to hear, the face I can't wait to kiss and the warmth I can never let go in the morning. If there is any need for convincing, be convinced that today I love you more than yesterday and it doesn't end until the day we both hold our last breathe.

I believe in fate and in destiny and I also believe in making things happen for us. Yes, I believe life is a combination of both. Because we decide how we want our life to turn out. We're walking this road and the only path I want to take is to be happy with you everyday. It's been a while since I last wrote and tomorrow, we're going to see our wedding planner that we both won :) we're going to share our plans on how we plan to be happy for the rest of our lives. Yes, I'm excited to share and make it better baby.

Everyday seems to be passing us by and thank you for letting me be by your side. I know sometimes you do get worried about some things but trust in your lamb. There is only one lion for a lamb and one lamb for a lion. That's exactly what I wrote for you in your note today. In so many ways, what it actually means is that you are perfect to me and you complete me and I only hope that I appear perfect and you feel I complete you too. Today my blue lion is perfect and your smile dazzled me from the moment I opened my eyes.

You started with nightmares but I'm here to be the sweetest dream of today. I love you baby and today is beautiful, always, because of you. Lamb is sleepy today but just watch me gallop for you. Gallop, gallop ~ baa baa ~

PS. Bie, I always like your blue dress and the way you sashay while walking in blue. You're so beautiful. Love you.

Waking up to Perfection on a Wednesday

"I believe there's a place where the restless souls wander, burdened by the weight of their own sadness. They wait for a chance to set the wrong things right. Only then can they be reunited with the ones they love. Sometimes, a crow shows them the way; because sometimes, love is stronger than death."

~ City of Angels



Today we both woke up lazy to get to work. I think I rather be still in sheets hugging my lion. I rate my lion's hugability at a ten out of ten. Been trying to keep track of our progress on our wedding through this blog and the latest development is something to shout about. Ever since finalising the venue and photographers, we actually won 10K in an online contest and things are definitely looking up.



Nothing to complain about as this is definitely the icing on an already delicious recipe for a wedding to remember. We wrote in total four entries and one got us the top prize and here we are with a wedding planner and a beach wedding to come.



Our wedding entry was really simple and I'm convinced that it was her perfect look when I tried to "nerd" kiss her that won us the grand prize. What are the odds? We made it all the way and on the day of announcement, which happened to fall on Halloween's Day and were pleasantly shocked. I remember waiting for her to get back home under the tree and there was a slight breeze as I turned off my engine and held the handphone in my hand. We were on the phone and then this SMS came in. We were in that moment, one of the five shortlisted couples. In fact our candidate number was number one .



It was a mad rush to the party and three hours later we ended up like this. A winning smile and a winning entry. Lion's face upon the announcement was pure classic and it was akin to the Oscar announcement. We were in pure happyness shock and that simply was the moment to remember. That victory picture with Nathasha was simply unbelievable, now that we have a garden, church, hotel and beach wedding. Can't ask for more. I wanted to write a more enchanting story or a fairytale to describe the moment but no fairytale or created story could match what really happened.

Having said that, we have 367 days to go until our wedding. Appreciate each step we take along the way and this is shaping up to be an adventure to reflect on for a lifetime. Baby, thank you for walking this journey with me, for taking the time, the patience and all the love in the world to marry me and write this chapter of life together. Maybe today is not too bad to wake up to. Waking up to perfection on a Wednesday.

PS. Bie, I love you and today and everyday of our lives, you insist on making it perfect. Walking this road is simply beautiful. This is our moment.

listening to my heart..nothing is perfect without u...

"Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? I say fall head over heels. Find someone you love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart."

~ Meet Joe Black



Some things in life are the only things worth living, breathing and looking for. And when I think of these things, I think of your smile in the morning when you look for me before you get up, I think of you lazing and gently lying down on me on your couch and I think of when you make me ribena or milo at night. These things are worth living, breathing and looking forward to. Imagine how much more lies ahead with the trips we want to make, the moments we want to create, those are special. But I wake up everyday looking forward to these "special" moments with you.

I think I'm pampered that way. That these two days when I wake up to not be able to see these, I feel this emptiness, this incompleteness that maybe I'm really spoiled by this happyness called you. I like to think that I'm not a selfish person but when it comes to this happyness, I want to be selfish and I want to want everything about you. Not selfish to the point that I want everything you and everything you do, but I'm selfish about this happyness and joy with you. And that is something I want to protect and keep.

I woke up today to knowing that you are tired, maybe bullied and not having enough rest. And when you do not have enough rest, you get easily sick and feel unwell :( all I want to do today is make you smile, protect you and wait for you to come back. Today is beautiful baby and it's beautiful again because of you. I'm going to start today by painting you this story and I hope you will like it. I don't have many strengths but many this canvas can be this beautiful smile for you.

During the reign of the Han, there was this elderly couple who lived in the outskirts of Longzhong, in today's Hubei province. Old Man Chen was a farmer who toiled the lands and the peaceful surroundings was a blessing. Old Woman Chen was hospitable by nature and both lived in a tavern which they had owned for many years. They both longed for a child but were never blessed with one. They looked for comfort in passing guests. It was in this instance that they both found a crying baby in their tavern one day. Unblemished and wrapped only in cloth in one of the rooms, they took it to be a sign from heaven and raised the child as their own. Naming her, Si Chi.

Many years passed and the child grew up to be a beautiful lady. But although fair of face, Si Chi was never one who was contented with all the expectations of being a lady and she wanted to always walk that much further everyday, see that next house beyond the trees and wonder lay beyond the next road. The couple knew that they did not have long and they were worried for Si Chi. It so happened one day on a rainy night with thunder and storm, that an injured wandering traveler would knock on the doors. Afraid of bandits and the safety of Si Chi due to the darkness, the old couple shouted for him to search for another inn.

Dismayed the traveler was about to leave when the doors opened and Si Chi was at the door gesturing for him to hide from the rain. Overjoyed at the hospitality, he stepped in cautiously, gracious for the kindness shown. Introducing himself as Lam Bo, a scholar on the way to the capital, Si Chi was mesmerised and wanted to know more about his journeys. The old couple were suspicious but slowly warmed up at the good nature of Lam Bo. Lam Bo was traveling to retake the annual exams in the capital but chanced upon bandits and had suffered injuries while escaping.

While recovering, Lam Bo would tell Si Chi stories about his wanderings and travels every night. She would listen and smile at all the adventures often interjecting and asking questions. In time, feelings would grow too beneath the flicker of candle flames. With time, the wounds healed and Lam Bo was bound to leave for the exams. Thanking the old couple for their hospitality, Lam Bo left with a heavy heart and left the farewell for Si Chi at the last. Shedding a tear, Lam Bo mentioned that he would come back upon finishing the exams as a scholar and that every night on the road, Si Chi would be that lonely companion in his mind.

Si Chi promised to always be there for him and Lam Bo began his final trek to the capital. Every night, Lam Bo would write a note and let it flow to the winds. It spoke of this love that had blossomed in the tavern and he hoped to let his love fly every night back to Si Chi. The exams went on for a month and upon finishing, the candidates were required to stay in the capital to await the results. Lam Bo was announced as on the three finalist scholars and was bound to take up post in the capital. Overjoyed, Lam Bo requested that the celebratory parade pass the tavern. On the way back, he passed the taverns only to find that Si Chi had already left on a journey of her own and she promised to return after 3 years.

Lam Bo was devastated and rejecting all worldly fame and material, left the post and left to search for her in his journeys. They both traveled their path and never met, only to arrive again at the tavern. There Lam Bo and Si Chi finally met under the gaze of the candles.

"Why did you leave?"

"I never left..I was with you. I kept my word. I never left you."

"But you were not here."

"I went looking high and low to learn things. To be able to be myself"

"But the one I love is you and the one right here"

"I never changed. I saw things and I knew that the only place I wanted to be is right here with you. I love you too"

With that they remained in the tavern. No one knows what happened after that. Some say they left on another journey. Some say they continued to stay at the tavern and took over from Old Man Chen and Old Women Chen. But the thing for sure was they stayed in love for all time.

PS. Bie, listening to your voice on the phone is pure happyness. I love you. I'm here waiting and you never left.

galloping for a lion on a Wednesday

"It is at times like this that I know what my purpose is in life. I am here to love you, to hold you in my arms, to protect you. I am here to learn from you and receive your love in return. I am here because there is no other place to be."

~ Message in a Bottle



I love you. I love you to me means that you are more important than me. I love you means that when you are not around, not only will I behave but my heart is missing this huge chunk and it's all because of you. But it's okay because my heart was never whole before you anyways. So I am waiting. Waiting right here to be complete. I guess I too am spoiled, spoiled to always have you to love, to hold and to cherish. I live everyday not taking things for granted and on days that you are not around, I do feel that a part of me is not living.

Why are you there? You asked. Maybe you are there so that I can miss you, and always know how much you mean to be and how I can't live without you. You are there so that when you get back, a lamb can give you all the TLC and tenderness that a lion deserves. Maybe you are there so that missing each other means something. But I know one thing, that every second you're not here, I keep that memory, hold it and wait for you to come back then pamper you like no tomorrow.

Bie, I know you're tired from the entire night travel and you will be exhausted after the party tonight. So I am going to remind you that your lamb will always be here for you. No matter what or where you are, I will always be here for you. I know you like stories so here's another simple one that I hope you will like. This is not a real story but I hope this one that I write based on my imagination will entertain you for today :)

Magena, was a young girl who wandered around the hills and regions of the west for her name to the tribes meant moon. And she was as delightful as the moon on any pale night. She was young and often wandered far from her hut searching for beauty and joy. She was betrothed to Mapiya who was nicknamed after the sky. For he was plain and simple but he always whispered to Magena how he would complete her for in all beauty, he was the sky that held her true. For when she was missing, the sky would long for the moon. The tribes lived in bliss and happiness and spent many nights under the stars counting their blessings.

Now not all among the tribes were of good nature and of kind heart, Taima named after thunder was a jealous tribesmen and he often lusted after Mapiya. As she wandered alone sometimes unwatched by Mapiya, Taima would follow close by eyeing any opportunity for himself. Taima watched day by day and he understood the patterns of her travel and he convinced himself fueled by his lust to capture her. Setting his plans, Taima ventured and pretended to be of injury on the path that Magena would travel. Magena falling for the trick inquired only to be captured and taken away to the mountains where Taima knew no tribesmen would dare venture.

Mapiya was worried for Magena and searched high and low behind every valley and hill after days of her gone missing. Magena who was trapped longed for Mapiya and dreaded Taima. Taima would woo her day by day promising the sun and the stars only to be turned away. Magena would look longingly out of her capture pining for Mapiya. With each passing day, the patience of Taima would grow thinner as he heard Magena cry for Mapiya.

Mapiya chanced upon Taima at the mountains while Taima was gathering wood in the nearby forests of the mountain. Finding it odd for Taima to be acting so suspiciously so far away from the tribe, suspecting the worse, Mapiya tailed Taima back to the enclosure and capture tent of Magena. Waiting in patience for nightfall, Mapiya silently crept in the still darkness of the night to peek into the enclosure. Behold, lo did he see his fair Magena weeping into the night. Enraged, Mapiya seethed and bit his lips in anger at the betrayal of Taima. Silently lifting the locks, he whispered to Magena to escape. Overjoyed, Magena leapt into Mapiya's arms as they crept around the enclosure to head back to safety.

Taima who was listening behind the doors felt it odd that there was no usual crying that night and thought maybe his luck and fate had turned. After some time of rejoicing at his good turn, Taima decided to look into Magena. Shocked at her chamber being empty, he searched for signs only to find the broken locks and made haste after the trail of Magena and Mapiya. Catching up, he shouted in anger with a spear telling them to go no further. Mapiya wishing to duel to the death was made to stay still by Magena who could not afford to lose him. Shedding a tear, Magena turned to face Mapiya, "Will you stay with me for a lifetime?" "Always"

With that they leapt and the Gods took pity on them and caught them from falling into the cliff and set them up in the air. And they said, "Magena, for you are truly of compelling beauty and for others to never desire you, may you show your faces in stages by the day and only appear at night?" At this Magena protested, "How then can I be with my heart's desire, Mapiya?" To this, the gods replied, "Mapiya, will you spend this eternity holding Mapiya and being loyal to her alone?" To this, Mapiya answered, "Yes. For all eternity". It was thus that the moon and the sky were made.



Taima angered at this favour of the gods, turned to the imps and they in turn made him thunder. For thunder and the sky would never share the same likeness. One sought to uphold the blue and calmness and the other to grow and shout of terror and anger. But for all eternity, Magena and Mapiya will always have each other.

~~ The End ~~

Hope you like this story bie :) Today, is beautiful and you are beautiful. I am smiling for you and I hope with this story and this post, you too will smile for me. Another day will pass and you will be back soon. Lamb is waiting. Waiting for a lion. And they will always have each other. For an eternity. Writing our happily ever after, one day, one step at a time.

PS. Bie, I miss you. I miss you, miss you so so much. Love you baby.

nitemares go away but i am here to stay

“You are what I never knew I always wanted”

~ Fools Rush In



Lion had a nightmare today and it woke her up crying. Definitely not the best way to wake up to a day. And she's been having these weird nightmares recently. All I hope is that day by day by loving her more, all these dreams will be just dreams that fade away with time. It's okay to be afraid and nervous about a relationship and it's okay to have nightmares. Because its the responsibility of a lamb to make a lion feel secure and safe every moment each day.

So I am writing this note. Not to comfort because only love comforts. And only when I have loved enough can trust be earned. There is nothing to complain about but there is a lot to care about. Today is beautiful. I know you did not wake up to something beautiful today but I am going to make it beautiful for us. Dreams will fade but I am here to stay. I am here baby. Like always for you, for us. Today, the sun is shining again because today you came back after two days and today I will paint you this smile that will warm your heart.

It started with a note, it follows with a blogpost and it will continue with all these things that I want you to see. So what is it that I want you to see today baby? I want you to see how much a lamb will make you happy. I want you to see how much joy you bring to me and how important you are to me today. But most importantly, baby, I want you to see this love that we share. I do not promise that maybe tonight the nightmares will not come back but I promise I will be here to keep you warm if they choose to return. I will be here to chase them away and I will be here to paint you smiles.

Nightmare comes from an Old English word, maere which means 'goblin, incubus.' The term nigt-mare began in 1300, and it referred to an evil female spirit afflicting sleepers with a feeling of suffocation. To Red Indians, it is a sign of the spirits that talked to them and to ancient Egyptians, these dreams were warnings from the world of the dead. Psychologists believed that nightmares are what we are most afraid of. Baby, there is this story about nightmares and how they began.

There is this tale shared among ancient tribes of neighboring Maya that speaks of dreams and nightmares. They say that in the beginning, man did not need sleep and they were free to wander the earth walking among the gods. And those were peaceful times with no darkness. There was this goblin god who was mischievous and was envious of the happiness around. So the goblin god made a pact with the imps of the underworld to unleash darkness to the world. Carefully, they broke apart the gates of Charath, the underworld and darkness was unleashed to the world. The breaking of the gates tore the world apart

The gods and men shocked by the sudden darkness were in despair and within the darkness, the imps wrecked utter havoc. Many lost their minds in fright at the sight of these imps. The gods anxious to protect man, drew over a cloud that made them sleep so that the imps could not drive them mad. One by one they cast the imps back to the underworld. Some of the imps hid and invaded the dreams of man in revenge, appearing in all forms and shapes to terrify man. But sleep protected them as the gods rooted them out. They say until today they are still some lingering and some still escape the broken gates but each are hunted down and taken away by the gods.

Bie, I am no god but I am here to protect you from any eventuality of any nightmare. I am here to say that I will always be around and that there is nothing to fear. I know it's easier to say than to do, but today is beautiful and today I am going to make you smile. Watch me gallop those nightmares away baby. And if those naughty imps dare appear in your sleep, rest assured that although I am no knight, but I am here to fight for our happiness and I am here to bring that smile back to where it belongs. Love you baby.



If these imps appear in your nightmare baby, lamb is here to kick their butt!!!

PS. Baby, I am here waiting to see you and today really is beautiful. Nightmare or not, lamb is here. I will always be here so have no fear, let me see that smile.

i miss you today...my everything

Holden: I crave you! I wanna know everything about you. Who are you?
Justine: I'm just this woman.



Yes baby, you are more than just this woman. You are my everything and I miss everything about you today. Yes, maybe I may not be smiling much when hearing from you while in the middle of a trip that you will be away again next week on another trip. But the truth is you made me smile today. You make me want to wake up to today. You made me smile when I heard your voice and you definitely made me smile when you told me you love me. As to the question of whether I know that? Of course I know that, it's the part of not being able to tell you the same face to face that maybe I'm not smiling that brightly.

But today, today is beautiful. I can list a few reasons why it is beautiful. For one, it's beautiful because you sound so sexy waking up in the morning. Secondly, today is beautiful simply because you live in it and maybe more so beautiful because today, you begin your trip back. I know I mention today a lot but today, I smile for you and I think there's nothing more beautiful than to have someone you love to smile for and look forward to meeting.

Baby, I want to write you another story today and I hope you will like it. Am not sure when you will read this but I hope you like this story. Today's story has a title, it's called, "Saving Private Lamb".

Lamb was a sad soul who was pushed around and not taken seriously in the community of other lambs. Lamb was too short they said, and he had parallel feet too some thought. The country of Lamb was under the threat of the invading alien force. So Lamb signed up for the army in hopes of finding meaning and to perhaps earn respect. Lamb was not the fastest runner, or the toughest soldier, or even the most sharpshooter in the army. But he was the most persistent and the one who endured the most humiliation. Because he realised that if he quit and went back, the band of lambs back home would only humiliate him further. So he persevered and was patient.

He bid his time and practiced hard to be the best private in the army. He never was the best but he was ready when he was called to the frontline. His unit, the 23rd Lamb infantry was assigned the difficult and most dangerous task of holding the frontline against the savage army of the invading aliens. Taking control of Fort Freedom One, Lamb and his unit fought bravely but as one by one of the other Infantry units were taken out, they were forced to fall back and defend behind the walls of Freedom One.

The aliens were savage and food supplies and weapons were running low. But Private Lamb refused to give up and urged the defenders on. One of the infantry unit managed to sneak by and run for help. Back at defense headquarters, they understood the importance of rescuing and recapturing Fort Freedom One so they agreed to send in the best agent, Private Lion to head the rescue party. Private Lion was one of the best in the army and she had been trained for specific rescue missions. The rescue party set out with full zest and enthusiasm to drive back the invaders.

There was a lot of coordination in between and Private Lamb offered to head the plan to ignite the bomb that would signal the start of the joint attack within and from outside Fort Freedom One. At dawn when it was most quiet on the 21st day of the tenth month, Private Lamb burst forth with guns blazing and as the others covered him, he set about to detonate the bomb. Everything went well except for the fact that the walls caved in with the explosion and Private Lamb found himself trapped. Knocking around he was surprised to also find Private Lion. Private Lion who came to support found herself trapped as well when the walls caved in.

Laughing in despair at their state, Private Lamb remarked, "Wasn't there a movie called saving Private Ryan? Maybe you're the one needing saving now miss". Private Lion growled in reply, "Yeah, did you think I did not know about the movie?". Private Lamb said, "It's not that. It's more maybe you're the one that I came into the army for. Maybe the entire reason of my life was up to this point. Maybe it's not about proving things to people and more about living my life. I think it's all to this point. I have nothing to prove. Let's get out of here".

Clasping their hands, they worked a way out through the cracks and by then the fighting was already over. They had won the day and driven the aliens back from taking over the last remaining fort at the frontline. "We live to fight another day then. Life is beautiful" Private Lamb smiled as they walked into the sunset.

I think loving you is about being persistent enough in loving and caring enough for you each day of our lives whether you are here physically or not. I think loving you is about believing in the bigger picture that we have a lifetime worth of loving and that keeps me alive and smiling everyday. You are my reasons. You are all my reasons. So you don't have to remind me to smile for you baby. Because of you, I am smiling everyday and living every moment. I know you are there for me always, when it counts and when you just are there. I hope I am here for you always.

You're not here today but that does not mean I can't fight for our love, I believe that I can make you smile even when you can not see me face to face. I believe that at this point, everything leads to us. Maybe all my life, I have been waiting for this moment to be with you. There are many battles ahead but in this war of life, trust me that I am your soldier, I'm not the best, the strongest, or even the toughest but I'm the one who will stand with you everyday for the rest of our lives. And everyday, I will paint you a smile that will last. And I can’t wait for our ending, that happily ever after. Today is beautiful day, baby. Miss you so much from the heart.

PS. Bie, waiting for perfection to come back to my life. I love you. I hope I can "save" you the same way you "saved" me. Smile for me today bie because I'm smiling and waiting for you :)

the only Storm is not having u here with me

Storm clouds may gather and stars may collide, but I love you, until the end of time.

~ Moulin Rogue



Woke up today and there was this feeling of emptiness. Sometimes I get confused on how do I write for you, whether do I address you as her, or lion or as you. But today I am clear on this; I miss you so so much and my heart tells me that everything seems meaningless without you. YOU, YOU, YOU are this enormous thing that has gone empty today. I woke up to a missing person by my side and no warmth in the sheets. I woke up to this empty feeling because the biggest part of me is going away today.

It doesn't hurt but it feels so meaningless without you today baby. I told you whenever I can that everytime you go away, it does not get any easier, I miss you all the more. I know yes it's ridiculous because you're only gone for two days. But to me that's two entire days without you. I don't need you to see a familiar face or to feel warmth although you do all that to me, I need you and I miss you because you are every single meaning in my life and I am lost without you. Today I rushed to the airport but was still slightly late. Yes it's disappointing but nothing to be sad of baby as I know I'm on your mind. Did you know you never left mine too?

Today is the first day and the first night that you are away is always the toughest. Baby, I want to write this story so that maybe it can warm your night. Now, far away in this land there was this lamb who galloped hard into the day everyday wanting to write the loveliest fables and stories that the land could provide. He galloped far and wide, looking and searching high and low for that one story that would make his everyday. He wrote about the stars, the seas and sand, the green trees in meadows. Stories that would make people read in awe and inspiring. But these were not the stories that he wished to write. Not the stories that would remain.

He rode high and hard, long into the meadows and out from forests. Looking in vain he rested among the bushes. Wistfully humming a hymm as clouds drifted above. Little did the lamb know that ever since coming out of the forests was he watched as he lay in the bushes. Creeping ever so silently, the claws of the eyes that watched reached out and held the lamb in place. Aghast that a lion was before him, the lamb cried out in fear and fright only to have the lion placate and instruct the lamb to follow. And follow the lamb did, past Gardens in walks, meals in front of candles, dances under the stars and into the depths of the sea; past skies with birds and even to islands of great beauty.

And in that instant of most despair and when the lion was at her most ugly, the lamb came forth with a ring saying that this was the story that he had been chasing. The one chapter that he would always write, the ending that only his eyes would see. The lion cried with joy and they danced into the night. Now there was a time when the lion was summoned away and the lamb had to stay. There was a long silence into the night as the lamb promised to wait and write their tale. So he wrote a letter that spoke such,

"We are different in some ways and yet similar in so many. The sky is shining when I write this but there is no sun when you left with my heart. There is no sun not because my world is not bright anymore but because it shines for you where you go. It does not mean that you take my meaning away when you go but the truth is that you are my meaning and when you go, you take that part of me with you. So in all truth, it's far from me losing my meaning. it's simply my meaning is you. Although I am here, in all reality, I am with you. So I am here waiting for you. For us. Because without you, there is no me. I am a lamb but I am a lamb that will make you fall in love with me a lifetime. I know this because no lamb lets his happily ever after get away not even for a day. To this lamb, there is no other story worth writing, worth living than ours. I love you."

No one knows the ending of the lion and the lamb but I think there is no ending because there's this list and we have so much to do. The world is waiting. I am waiting. I love you baby. I am here for you. I write this for you and I am missing you so so much. Today is beautiful baby because of you. Imagine how perfect it would be if you were here with me.

PS. Bie, I love you. Enough said.

today is called i love you

To love someone deeply gives you strength. Being loved by someone deeply gives you courage.

~ Lao Tzu



There is a saying that I do remember reading in the past but I can't quite remember where I read this from; Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow. Don't walk behind me, I may not lead. Just walk beside me and be my friend forever. And on this beautiful Friday, maybe that is what matters. It's been a tiring and hectic two weeks and it has been absolutely been enchanting through the highs and lows. Today, lion woke up with nightmares and all I can say is that there is nothing to worry about when she's the only thing on my mind. Since we began this new chapter, everything has been perfect and all I need to remind her of is that perfection that we're walking each day. I love you baby and today you're beautiful.

We're nearly there having done so much in so short a time and most of the stress is really vaporising as we slowly solve each puzzle. Everyday is another answer and another day to solve the remaining puzzles. Each day is a ride of joy and even in tiredness and fatigue, there is her smile that I can look forward to that we're getting somewhere with each passing day. I want to be able to hold her hand while I type this note to her heart but I know that she's busy. So I will settle for holding her in my heart as I type this. This truth that I can not live without her in yes, only the few months since I last held her hand while driving with another on our first date.

Today, I look back and just smile at how far we have come but the real happiness is in how much I get to smile ahead at how much further I want to live everyday with you. Today, I close my eyes and I see the possibilities ahead and how much I know each day will be perfect. Yes, there are many worries and many things that will frighten us but this journey that we've started is exactly like in the stories and movies that matter. Dark and full of danger they were but the sun will shine each day and it will shine all the brighter. For me, it shines because of you so if you are worried about the light being dimmer, maybe it's because today my eyes were sleepy from dreaming of you too much the night before and all I see is you. Today is called I love you. It has always been.

From the moment of holding your hand after asking permission to today. Baby, you're the only person and thing that holds my everyday together and it's beautiful. I'm not writing this to convince you of your nightmares but I am writing this today to say you're beautiful and I love you, my fiance. Today is another day with more possibilities and I for one, can't hardly wait.

PS. Bie, today is beautiful. Smile for me. Hold my hand. Love me. Because you are simply perfect to me.

Spelling Love

Love is a many splendid thing. Love lifts us up where we belong. All you need is love!

~ Moulin Rouge



I love when my heart smiles, but the best of all, it smiles because of you. Love is not measured by how you feel, but how you make the other person feel. Today we're embarking on the next great adventure and after all the emotional high, we're drafting our plans to make our wedding a great one. There's a lot of challenges ahead and a lot of big decisions to be made already at the start but I believe that all we need is each other.

Today is beautiful and I can sense that little bit of stress creeping up into her already to make it the beautiful dream that she sees and I promise her and us nothing but this, it will all become a reality. Everything that we dream of will come true and we will make this happen. Because it is written. From the start of the blog until this moment, it is meant to be. Because from the start, I will not accept anything less than perfect for the perfect bride. Yes, there are many constraints and many challenges but the truth is that we will make it through until the end together.

Today is beautiful because we choose to face it and make it beautiful together. Each day, we write a new page that adds to this new chapter together. Each line slowly but surely makes more sense and meaning as we slowly edge to the end of the chapter. Yes it is a bit early to be talking about the end of the chapter but it keeps everything in perspective, it keeps me so excited about waking up to each day and so happy about living each moment. Maybe we all need to seat back let things take it's course and just take things one step at a time. Let each step be with love and all the care we need to make this happen.

All I'm trying to say today baby is that it will be beautiful. Our chapter and it's ending so let's take our time. I love you and let's make this happen one step at a time. Today is beautiful baby. Let's continue to make it beautiful to remain in our minds at the end. Listening to that love story song by Taylor Swift again,

Romeo save me there trying to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes

It's not your favourite song but baby, it's just there right in front of us. Let's go get it. Love you baby.

PS. Bie, today you're beautiful. I'm so lucky we're doing this together. One day, one step at a time. I love you

When 2 become 1

Lion: Somewhere over the rainbow~~~blue birds fly~~~and the dreams that you dreamed of~~~Dreams really do come true ooh ooooh
Lamb: *Galloping galloping*



Thewrecktan: I come not with optimism or any hope. In fact, I do not even come hoping for anything. But I come tonight with certainty and confidence. I come for you. I come for us. Baby, on this night when you are at your most ugly and grotesque, I ask this ugly plant whos the most beautiful woman in my world to marry me. Marry me baby, complete me.

(inserts ring onto stunned flytrap's finger)

EvilJanet/VenusFlytrap/Plant: Why did you put the ring on before I say Yes??? Get up get up....(later in the car)YES YES YES!!!!*sobbing*

This is EvilJanet and it is the first time I scribble something onto this blog..officially...everything is sorta official and I dunno how to describe how I feel about this dream that is really coming true. This man sitting beside me writing this blog with me, I'll be his, and he'll be mine...Forever! Yes you heard it right..I'm saying Forever. This realistic gal is learning how to say forever.

This is Thewrecktan and EvilJanet is officially invading my blog for the first time. What started as a blog to talk about what's most important in my life has expanded and evolved into what casual readers might say is only about her. But the reality is that my life is entirely exactly about her and us. Today, we write this post together to celebrate this moment. This moment that we begin our forever officially and I for one can't hardly wait. There are more beautiful words and greater blogposts but there will never be another that will touch my heart more or spell forever more clearly for me. I love you my EvilJanet, my baby, my VenusFlytrap, my future wifey, my fiancee, my everything, my all. I love you my elf, my lion and my one definition of love. I can't wait for the days ahead.

I love you very much too Thewrecktan aka Bie aka Lamb aka Hobbit aka Parallel Feet..*evil grin* so much of the name calling and this is how we entertain each other each day...My life has been different with you, everything is special and and everyday is blessed. You write me post it everyday which I can never get enuff, your blogposts keep me alive and your tenderness melts my heart, everyday. I always feel that I do not do enuff so I ask you, how do I love you right and enuff to make you stay with me a lifetime?

And I always tell her that all you need to do for us to last a lifetime is love me, just love me. And here we are, I have broken every single one of her rules and here we are about to begin our forever officially and we as one can't hardly wait.

Last note, thanks for hiring me as your wife. I have received the offer letter (jumping up and down looking at my ring finger..yay!), and I will report to work from October 2010 till death do us part (now I'm on probation, I'm your intern so I need to take your temperature now as you're having mild fever) talk to you guys next time...we have a wedding to catch!