you..it's all about you

Albert: You know, honestly, I never knew I could feel like this. You know? I swear I'm, I'm going out of my mind. It's like I want to throw myself off of every building in New York. I, I see a cab and I just wanna dive in front of it because then I'll stop thinking about her.
Alex "Hitch" Hitchens: Look, you will. Just give it time.
Albert: That's just it. I don't want to. I mean, I've waited my whole life to feel this miserable. I mean, and if this is the only way I can stay connected with her, then... well, this is who I have to be.

~ Hitch



Tired. We're both tired but the last long weekend was simply great. If I could go back and change anything, I would not. There is nothing more to ask than to lie in the arms of the people you love the most. Yes, time flew by us but this gift of being able to spend it with the one who matters most is a privilege and I come back to work happy but unsatisfied. I still feel greedy about the time we have together. I always feel I need more time. More time holding her in sheets, more time cuddling in front of the tv, more time walking Prince, more time eating more food and more time just being with her.

Today's weather is great for sleeping indoors and I wish we could have stayed longer in bed. It's shaping to be a really lazy day and she's going to be so tired by the end of the day and nearly half dead by the end of the week. Writing this piece to cheer her up. Baby, if you're reading this, I wish I had more cheerful words to craft into a happier message and a more motivating one to make you smile. Like when you are near and make my world shinny and more cheerful, I love you. And I wish I too make your spot in the world shinny and cheerful too.

Driving to work today and talking about tomorrow and the future, it always reminds us that we have so much more to do and life is still so long ahead to walk. It's nice that way. That I can hold your hand to work and just think what today and the future holds, no matter where we end up as long as I have you, it is perfect. Like Rosie last night, don't you dare go before we complete our list or I will make sure you regret it in your next life. There are so many things to look forward to like the holy grail of marriage.

Thinking happy thoughts on a gloomy Tuesday and it helps. Because I smile each time I think about you and the thought of you cheers any stupid passing day that doesn't matter when I don't get to see you much. No matter what, I can't wait to keep painting smiles today with your hand. Writing this short post to make your moment sweet. Love you and just want you to know that it's you I'm thinking of every moment.

PS. Bie, you're beautiful today and when you smile, all dark clouds are chased away so smile for me. Always. I love you.

friday came to visit again

Meredith: Dr. Shepherd.
Derek: Dr. Shepherd? This morning I was Derek, now it's Dr. Shepherd.
Meredith: Dr. Shepherd we should pretend it never happened.
Derek: What never happened? You sleeping with me last night? Or you throwing me out this morning? Because both are fond memories I'd like to hang on to.
Meredith: No, there will be no more memories. I'm not the girl in the bar anymore and you're not the guy. This can't exist. You get that, right?
Derek: You took advantage of me and now you want to forget it?
Meredith: I did not take—
Derek: I was drunk, vulnerable and good looking and you took advantage.
Meredith: Okay, I was the one who was drunk and you are NOT that good looking.
Derek: Maybe not today, but last night I was very good looking. I had on my red shirt, my good looking shirt and you took advantage.
Meredith: I did not!
Derek: Would you like to take advantage again, say Friday night?
Meredith: No! You're an attending and I'm your intern! Stop looking at me like that.
Derek: Like what?
Meredith: Like you've seen me naked.



There was a day at the office when we were first starting out and I was just starting to get used to her hand and I would stare at her in a way which she found adoring (I personally think I look at her cute :) ) that she said the exact same thing to me. Must be from the same script that she saw on Grey's. She did mention it was the same but I never really saw the episode. Just thinking back how far we've come. Its only been a short while in terms of human calculations but its amazingly intense in the journey that we've been holding hands. I have always said that the only thing I regret is not making her smile more and there is another thing that I want her to know also, that the smiles she gives me, there is nothing sweeter than that in the world.

Theres just so much love in her smile that she reserves for me, in the touch of her hand that she coyly places on mine and the way she leans her head on my shoulders, she keeps insisting on filling my world with so much love. With a blink of an eye, another week is coming to pass. Time really seems to fly with her by my side. She wants to make each moment with me special and I really appreciate that. That somehow people could take her for granted, the people around her who see her everyday do not know how special she is. And when I see her as special, it makes me feel good. For the fact that no one except me sees her for who she really is; the most wonderful woman a man could ask to love. That shes someone so special but people just treat her as someone normal, I guess that I'm lucky I see beyond all that, that she really is simply...perfect.

She always tells me that shes just a normal girl. But when I look at her, I see anything but normal. Anything that I have in me that is special is her. I hope she knows this even when there is so much noise around that distracts and there is so much that can worry her, that nothing is more important than her. That she is always my numero uno in all that I do, think and feel and even in the things that I do not do, think and feel. Todays beautiful holding her hand and the weekend is only just beginning.

PS. Bie, how was it I was looking at you again? :P

Pursuing "Happyness"

I love that you get cold when it is 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.

When Harry Met Sally



If Harry could say that to Sally, heres what I would like to say to you on a beautiful Friday morning,

I love that your hand gets cold when the air con in the car is turned on and you hold mine to feel warm. I love that it takes you fifteen minutes to put on your make-up in the morning. I love that you roll your eyes when I'm looking at you while I'm driving. I love that after I spend a day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I close my eyes at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because I don't see you everyday. I'm here today because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.

Blinked my eyes again and its the end of another week already. Shes so beautiful today. I think that loving her has been a privilege and a blessing that at times I do not deserve. She keeps on insisting on making my every morning perfect. How do I not be contented with that? She keeps me falling in love on a daily dosage and shes adding more from time to time. Its the end of business day and the start of a weekend. And like I keep telling her, all I need every second is her love.

Will Smith mentioned this in 'The Pursuit of Happyness', which I strongly feel like telling the world right now, "This part of my life... this part right here? This is called "happyness." How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye every night so hard.

PS. Bie, you make driving so hard as well.