taking a break

(Bob Marley) He had this idea. It was kind of a virologist idea. He believed that you could cure racism and hate — literally cure it, by injecting music and love into people's lives.

One day he was scheduled to perform at a peace rally, gunmen came to his house and shot him down. Two days later, he walked out on that stage and sang.

Somebody asked him "why" he said: "The people that are trying to make this world worse are not taking a day off — how can I? — Light up the darkness.

Will Smith, I am Legend

Shes worried about me that I get tired and that slowly it will begin to show in the relationship. I'm not worried. Because the time given to me or rather us is never enough. I'm living by the day and I want to be here for her. Its never one way and it hurts more not to be there for her when shes thinking about me. How can I take a break when the heart can not rest from missing her? How can the mind rest when it can not stop leaving her? And how can the body stop when it is incapable of functioning without her? Its all about her.

Love starts the moment my eyes open in the morning and it ends when sleep touches. And in all the in between, there is nothing but love. There is a difference between being able to and not wanting to. Yes, there is a lifetime to spend with her but I do not want to waste a single second with her. It does not mean because I have a lifetime that I can take things for granted or more importantly I can not take her for granted. You do not rest from loving someone, you do not take shortcuts, you do not cheat, you do for every single moment realise and know how beautiful the things that she has done for you and you respect and treat her like your woman. I sit back sometimes and wonder, "How about the times that I could have done more but did not?" I could not live with that. I could not love her like that.

I would be worried for her the same if she did the things I did but I just want her to understand and believe that beneath it all, there is nothing more important than her and that shes number one. Always. No negotiation or compromise.

PS. Bie, youre a ten always.