My angel?

I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it. One.

City of Angels



Nicholas Cage, plays Seth, an angel who watches over those who are dying and leads them to the next life. He and one of his fellow angels, Cassiel like to ask people what their favourite thing in life was when they escorted them to the other side and they never really understood humans. That is until Seth meets Maggie, played by Meg Ryan. Seth decides to fall and be mortal and in turn be human in order to love her. Maggie is taken away in a cruel traffic accident but not before she tells him that when shes asked what her favourite thing was, she would answer Seth. Cassiel visits Seth after and asks if Seth had regretted himself choosing to fall to which Seth replied the above.

Its a Thursday and its another beautiful day. Theres a lot of noise going around us and sometimes we both find ourselves distracted. I try to keep a clean focus on everything everyday but with her, its so difficult. I'm holding her hand today and she insists on pampering me so much. I remember once she smsed me that she takes care of her things and belongings well. And I remember that if I did not want to fall into West Lake, I should decide to belong to her. Right now, the only thing I regret not doing was making her more happy every second and that I should only be concerned about belonging to her for a lifetime. Like Seth, I would rather have a moment with her than a lifetime without her, you are my angel.

Theres so much to worry about in life. But with her, with her close by, she says I'm perfect. Maybe because she didin't know I had to be brave for us even when I too was afraid. Maybe she didin't know that I was not smart enough in many things but had to be smart. And maybe she didin't know how imperfect I was but all along she was making me a better man. I am afraid most times, that I would not know how to make her smile. That she would shut me out from her world. But today like every other day, shes so determined to make me feel special. So focused on making me the centre of her universe. Inspite the fact that shes easily distracted and easily loses focus herself, she has never failed to put me as the main focus in everything. Be it from msn that she does not take seriously, to the meals that she prepares, to the times she would want me so much to know that I'm important and I matter more than other things. And for the times that I have failed her in all those moments, I am not perfect.

I do not apologise but baby, you complete me. With you, we are perfect. I do not promise to be perfect but I promise that you have my whole heart in all things big or small and I will always be here for you. In the clouds of uncertainty to the sunshine that we feel together, my hand never left yours baby. Where I fail, you have been there to make it perfect. Where I left things in a mess, you make it perfect. Despite all my failings, you still see me as perfect. And for all that, thank you for making the "mistake" of choosing me. Let me cherish you and love you for a lifetime.

PS. Baobei, let me always treat you like the baby and the treasure that you are.