Well, baby they are tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But, I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now
It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had, you break it
It's the risk that I'm taking
I ain't never gonna shut you out!
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby, I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
Halo, ooh ooh.....
Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again
It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had, you break it
It's the risk that I'm taking
I'm never gonna shut you out!
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby, I can feel your halo
I pray it won't fade away
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
Halo, ooh ooh.....
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
Halo, ooh ooh.....
Halo, ooh ooh.....
Halo, ooh ooh, ooooh........
Its so easy to sing of love and to write love stories because its always easier to imagine what it would be like to experience perfect love. To imagine what it would feel like, what it should taste like. But living it is definitely not easy. Especially when hurt is involved.
"I want a humane answer. A more logical, rational answer"
"But I'm telling you what I'm thinking. Not putting on a show"
Shes afraid of getting hurt. Maybe shes been hurt too much. She wants to prepare herself for the day I let her down. Thinking about it, it is funny yet painful on several levels. Nothing can prepare you for anything. She broke down her walls but didint let me in through the door. The only way then, is to keep knocking with a sincere heart until the day she opens. It takes time, patience, understanding, always being there for each other and of course a lot of love.
Love is something like this picture above. Its about two locks, opening up which they should not be because locks are meant to keep things in and well, locked. But when you open and when both locks meet, you see beauty. You do not know if it will be beautiful or even if the locks are a perfect match. But like love, locks are not meant to be like logic and rational. Love does not operate on the same rules. There are no safety nets. Its the same in life, we think we are in control, but we are only creating illusions for ourselves. Love is another platform of believe to not create illusions but rather to believe where logic and rational will not take you. Holding someone's hand is not easy. How do you learn to trust? I wish I had an answer. Perhaps the answer was the same when I asked what did she love about me.
There is no answer. Only belief. Love is like that. You fall in love over reasons that defeat all logic and reasoning. Learning to trust then is another leap of faith. Learning to trust with everything is something else. Waking up today, its another day. Another day to love and to be with her. I'm counting my days as blessings. I think what makes her afraid is that she has no control. Nobody has total control over anything. But no matter the reasons, I will always be here walking with her, holding her hand. For another day. One day at a time.
PS. Bie, missing you singing our song for me.
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