Showing posts with label wednesday. Show all posts
Showing posts with label wednesday. Show all posts

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Waking up to Perfection on a Wednesday

"I believe there's a place where the restless souls wander, burdened by the weight of their own sadness. They wait for a chance to set the wrong things right. Only then can they be reunited with the ones they love. Sometimes, a crow shows them the way; because sometimes, love is stronger than death."

~ City of Angels




Today we both woke up lazy to get to work. I think I rather be still in sheets hugging my lion. I rate my lion's hugability at a ten out of ten. Been trying to keep track of our progress on our wedding through this blog and the latest development is something to shout about. Ever since finalising the venue and photographers, we actually won 10K in an online contest and things are definitely looking up.



Nothing to complain about as this is definitely the icing on an already delicious recipe for a wedding to remember. We wrote in total four entries and one got us the top prize and here we are with a wedding planner and a beach wedding to come.



Our wedding entry was really simple and I'm convinced that it was her perfect look when I tried to "nerd" kiss her that won us the grand prize. What are the odds? We made it all the way and on the day of announcement, which happened to fall on Halloween's Day and were pleasantly shocked. I remember waiting for her to get back home under the tree and there was a slight breeze as I turned off my engine and held the handphone in my hand. We were on the phone and then this SMS came in. We were in that moment, one of the five shortlisted couples. In fact our candidate number was number one .



It was a mad rush to the party and three hours later we ended up like this. A winning smile and a winning entry. Lion's face upon the announcement was pure classic and it was akin to the Oscar announcement. We were in pure happyness shock and that simply was the moment to remember. That victory picture with Nathasha was simply unbelievable, now that we have a garden, church, hotel and beach wedding. Can't ask for more. I wanted to write a more enchanting story or a fairytale to describe the moment but no fairytale or created story could match what really happened.

Having said that, we have 367 days to go until our wedding. Appreciate each step we take along the way and this is shaping up to be an adventure to reflect on for a lifetime. Baby, thank you for walking this journey with me, for taking the time, the patience and all the love in the world to marry me and write this chapter of life together. Maybe today is not too bad to wake up to. Waking up to perfection on a Wednesday.

PS. Bie, I love you and today and everyday of our lives, you insist on making it perfect. Walking this road is simply beautiful. This is our moment.

galloping for a lion on a Wednesday

"It is at times like this that I know what my purpose is in life. I am here to love you, to hold you in my arms, to protect you. I am here to learn from you and receive your love in return. I am here because there is no other place to be."

~ Message in a Bottle




I love you. I love you to me means that you are more important than me. I love you means that when you are not around, not only will I behave but my heart is missing this huge chunk and it's all because of you. But it's okay because my heart was never whole before you anyways. So I am waiting. Waiting right here to be complete. I guess I too am spoiled, spoiled to always have you to love, to hold and to cherish. I live everyday not taking things for granted and on days that you are not around, I do feel that a part of me is not living.

Why are you there? You asked. Maybe you are there so that I can miss you, and always know how much you mean to be and how I can't live without you. You are there so that when you get back, a lamb can give you all the TLC and tenderness that a lion deserves. Maybe you are there so that missing each other means something. But I know one thing, that every second you're not here, I keep that memory, hold it and wait for you to come back then pamper you like no tomorrow.

Bie, I know you're tired from the entire night travel and you will be exhausted after the party tonight. So I am going to remind you that your lamb will always be here for you. No matter what or where you are, I will always be here for you. I know you like stories so here's another simple one that I hope you will like. This is not a real story but I hope this one that I write based on my imagination will entertain you for today :)

Magena, was a young girl who wandered around the hills and regions of the west for her name to the tribes meant moon. And she was as delightful as the moon on any pale night. She was young and often wandered far from her hut searching for beauty and joy. She was betrothed to Mapiya who was nicknamed after the sky. For he was plain and simple but he always whispered to Magena how he would complete her for in all beauty, he was the sky that held her true. For when she was missing, the sky would long for the moon. The tribes lived in bliss and happiness and spent many nights under the stars counting their blessings.

Now not all among the tribes were of good nature and of kind heart, Taima named after thunder was a jealous tribesmen and he often lusted after Mapiya. As she wandered alone sometimes unwatched by Mapiya, Taima would follow close by eyeing any opportunity for himself. Taima watched day by day and he understood the patterns of her travel and he convinced himself fueled by his lust to capture her. Setting his plans, Taima ventured and pretended to be of injury on the path that Magena would travel. Magena falling for the trick inquired only to be captured and taken away to the mountains where Taima knew no tribesmen would dare venture.

Mapiya was worried for Magena and searched high and low behind every valley and hill after days of her gone missing. Magena who was trapped longed for Mapiya and dreaded Taima. Taima would woo her day by day promising the sun and the stars only to be turned away. Magena would look longingly out of her capture pining for Mapiya. With each passing day, the patience of Taima would grow thinner as he heard Magena cry for Mapiya.

Mapiya chanced upon Taima at the mountains while Taima was gathering wood in the nearby forests of the mountain. Finding it odd for Taima to be acting so suspiciously so far away from the tribe, suspecting the worse, Mapiya tailed Taima back to the enclosure and capture tent of Magena. Waiting in patience for nightfall, Mapiya silently crept in the still darkness of the night to peek into the enclosure. Behold, lo did he see his fair Magena weeping into the night. Enraged, Mapiya seethed and bit his lips in anger at the betrayal of Taima. Silently lifting the locks, he whispered to Magena to escape. Overjoyed, Magena leapt into Mapiya's arms as they crept around the enclosure to head back to safety.

Taima who was listening behind the doors felt it odd that there was no usual crying that night and thought maybe his luck and fate had turned. After some time of rejoicing at his good turn, Taima decided to look into Magena. Shocked at her chamber being empty, he searched for signs only to find the broken locks and made haste after the trail of Magena and Mapiya. Catching up, he shouted in anger with a spear telling them to go no further. Mapiya wishing to duel to the death was made to stay still by Magena who could not afford to lose him. Shedding a tear, Magena turned to face Mapiya, "Will you stay with me for a lifetime?" "Always"

With that they leapt and the Gods took pity on them and caught them from falling into the cliff and set them up in the air. And they said, "Magena, for you are truly of compelling beauty and for others to never desire you, may you show your faces in stages by the day and only appear at night?" At this Magena protested, "How then can I be with my heart's desire, Mapiya?" To this, the gods replied, "Mapiya, will you spend this eternity holding Mapiya and being loyal to her alone?" To this, Mapiya answered, "Yes. For all eternity". It was thus that the moon and the sky were made.



Taima angered at this favour of the gods, turned to the imps and they in turn made him thunder. For thunder and the sky would never share the same likeness. One sought to uphold the blue and calmness and the other to grow and shout of terror and anger. But for all eternity, Magena and Mapiya will always have each other.

~~ The End ~~

Hope you like this story bie :) Today, is beautiful and you are beautiful. I am smiling for you and I hope with this story and this post, you too will smile for me. Another day will pass and you will be back soon. Lamb is waiting. Waiting for a lion. And they will always have each other. For an eternity. Writing our happily ever after, one day, one step at a time.

PS. Bie, I miss you. I miss you, miss you so so much. Love you baby.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

finding you perfect on a wednesday

"Do you ever put your arms out and just spin and spin and spin? Well, that's what love is like. Everything inside of you tells you to stop before you fall, but you just keep going."

~ Practical Magic



Wednesday. Love.

I have written so many project plans in over the four years of period that I have been having a job. Perhaps I should have written one a long time ago and shared it with you. So let me share the plans and dreams of a hobbit with you.

Project Code: TOP Priority
Project Name: The Pursuit of Lion (Happyness)
Project Timeline: From the moment subject matter laid eyes on me (beginning) and estimated end period of forever and ever
Proposed Budget: Whatever it takes
Success Parameters:
1. Being with you forever
2. Making you the happiest luckiest woman in the world
Estimated returns: A lifetime of the greatest happiness

Project Team:-
Project Lead: Hobbit
Project Team:
1. Lamb
2. Bie
3. Agent Yau Yeng

Resources allocation:
1. All the love in the world
2. All the patience of a hobbit
3. All the time left in the life of a bie
4. All the good things about agent Yau Yeng

Proposed Activities:-
Bring Sexy Back
~ To bring back everything that feels good and sexy everyday into your life by simply being me. Not that I'm sexy but I think you're hot and sexy and maybe being with an idiot/moron, you would actually be a Goddess. Well, my Goddess at least. I want you to feel good about everything you and that this world is beautiful and sexy to live on. That every second with me is beautiful and so worth living.

Hold your hand and never let go

~ The trick is in not really in holding tight and refusing to let go. The real trick is in fitting my hand in just nice into your life, letting it breathe a little, supporting the hand when it's weak and generally carrying the load of your hand. Sometimes it involves balancing but always, it's always about letting your hand know, that no hand fits better and carries your's better until the end of our days. I know my hand sweats after like 3 mins and it's ugly but it's strong and it's steady. And it holds tight and supports strong.

Wipe away the clouds
~ No advanced scientific machinery to control the weather is necessary but what is really required is the willingness to stand in the rain and after that paint another rainbow before the sun appears. Everyone needs reminding that the sun will shine. And I know I will not always be that sunshine that is beautiful but I am here for you in all weathers and when the clouds are there, I will chase them away with patience, gentleness and love.

Finding treasure
~ Yes, I am greedy. I am greedy for each treasure that is your smile. I am greedy for treasure that is you. I am greedy for us. I am greedy for time for us and I am definitely greedy and never contented being with you. Yes, I am guilty of being greedy and I will never be satisfied because I will never have enough of you.

Writing meaning
~ To write my meaning not in the sands of the sea or on rocks or on paper. But in the brightest stars of my sky. Because I will always find meaning in your eyes and there are none more brighter and shiny in my sky. And I will always be lost in them. That's my meaning. So in them forever I will stay.

Walk an endless Road

~ It's walking until the end that counts. And to walk, it requires all resources and more than that. In every project, there are unforseen obstacles and challenges especially for a project so monumental and daring in nature. But this is not an option or a choice, to walk is a commitment of everything. I know your mother told you guys, boys and men are never to be trusted so it's okay I'm a hybrid of things that you can lean on and walk with until the end. One day maybe when we've lost all our teeth and hair and maybe, maybe just then you will remember this project plan and you will smile. And I will wait for that day. Until then, let's keep walking, let's keep loving, let's keep living.

Today is beautiful and maybe this project plan only complements. It's just a plan, it's not alive. What's alive is this. What's real is this. Right here, right now, and tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow and maybe until the end, I am here. I am real. I love you and plan or no plan, I will always be here, your lamb, your hobbit, your bie, your all.

PS. Bie, I know the plan is far from perfect and only paints happy pictures, but life together is happiness and I will always chase my happyness, you. I am here for you. Always. I love you.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

What is beautiful

Perhaps it is good to have a beautiful mind, but an even greater gift is to discover a beautiful heart.

~ A Beautiful Mind




She wants to live life. And the conclusion is that I too simply want to live life with her. Writing this down, I know she will not read this again today and I really do not know when she will. But when she does, I hope what she sees is that she's the only thing that matters to me. That she's the only thing that I always see. She told me yesterday to find something that I will be passionate about in life and something that interests me. I was so tempted to tell her that I have found mine and I am contented with that one thing for life, her. She's got her heart in many places but I have mine in one, its always her. She's my reason, she's all my reasons and the wonder of it all is she does not really know how much I love her.

Life is simple. At times when I am lost, there is only one way to find my direction and that way is to go back to the start. When I am lost, I simply remind myself to back to the basics and remember why do I love her and everything becomes so clear.

Today she's smiling again and that is all I can ask for. She's beautiful today again. It's not her makeup that makes her beautiful although she believes so, it's always her smile. She's beautiful because she can't stop making me smile. She's anxious about whether or not she will get the role. I'm confident that she will, simply because she is that gracious and expressive enough to earn her chance. And simply because if she doesn't get this, she will try again. All I can do is watch her be happy and be happy for her. I truly am happy for her at her finally living her life. Because I too truly am living mine.

It's been a while since I last heard this song but guess it's appropriate for her right now.

你愛我像誰
我什麼都沒有
只是有一點吵
如果你感到寂寞
我帶給你熱鬧
為你繞一繞
沒有什麼大不了
卻可以讓你微笑
其實我很煩惱
只是你看不到
如果我也不開心
怕(而)你轉身就逃

愛上一個人
一定要讓他相信
這世界多麼美好
對每個人
都說還好
我的心我的情你不需要明瞭
只要我對你好
這樣的溫柔你要不要

其實你愛我像誰
扮演什麼角色我都會
快不快樂我無所謂
為了你開心
我忘記了累不累

其實你愛我像誰
任何的表情我都能給
在你身上學會流眼淚

This world is simply beautiful when you are. It suns again when you smile and that's all that matters. Today's beautiful and it's all because of you. You are all my reasons.

PS. Bie, you are all my reasons. I know you won't read this today and both of us do not know when. But when you do, hope you know that you're everything that means anything to me. Love you.