Scribblings on a Monday

Your eyes are the sweetest stars I've ever seen.

~ Moulin Rouge



There are no stories today. Not because you are right here where my eyes can find you. And I am writing this not because there is a rush of emotions that my hands start dancing. In fact, it's just the start of another week to start the month of March. I know it is beautiful like any other day because I woke up to you and I know everyday with you should be called lion's day because you make everyday meaningful. But then again, I did not write this today to tell you that although my eyes and my everything betray me in front of you.

I write this today. For you. I know you always wondered what would my wedding vow be. I wrote this before. Intending it to be beautiful. I know you will be surprised on why am I writing this openly and for you to read.

I wrote this intending it for the 6th of November...

"Today I stand before the sweetest star God could have drawn in the skies. And as I look at them with the most important promise I will make this lifetime, I take your hand, and put on this ring. I stand before you at the start of our chapter, at the start of this commitment of us. This chapter right here, I call marriage. I promise to love you beyond any promise I could ever make, I will be here in any cloud that blocks you from my earth, and I will be here because I will always love you. You are my lion, my partner, my wife. I am no genius but I know what it means to love perfection. Today and everyday of our lives, I give you....me"

But as you know, this only means that I found a "better" wedding vow. Not so sure if I found a "better" one but maybe I have a vow in my mind that better puts into words what I feel for you baby. So consider this a sneak preview of the months to come. Of what I feel for you, our wedding, our marriage and the next chapter of our lives. I know you're only going to get more frustrated wondering what I'm going to say on the biggest day of our lives but that's love. Always surprising, always warm, always whispering that same joy.

I love you baby and I know I won't get to spend so much time physically around you soon but my heart, my heart, I lay in the palm of your hands.

PS. Bie, just wait for our wedding day. It's going to be beautiful :)

you've got lamb

Baby Lion: What will Hobbit say today, I wonder. I turn on my computer. I wait impatiently as it connects. I go online, and my breath catches in my chest until I hear three little words: You've got blog. I hear nothing. Not even a sound, just the beating of my own heart. I have love. From you.

~ You've Got Lamb, 2009



Monday. Typing this all I'm saying in my mind is I love you. It's not only now that I'm saying it. But typing it out, you and the whole world knows this, that at this moment and right here right now, like always, only you matter. That just thinking of it, I hear my heart beat. And I listen to it speak. It calls your name. I love you baby. It's the start of the week, we got up late, watched as you drove with sleepy eyes and I was there pretending to sleep constantly looking at you.

And until this moment, all I can think about is you. I was hoping like You've Got Mail, in today's movie of You've Got Lamb, you are bored and you go online and you see this simple post. I know it's not much and it seems unimportant. But this is the most important thing that I will write today. And the wonder of it all is that the most important line is this sentence; I love you baby. I love you and that's all that matters.

Today's another day, the start of another week. Hold my hand baby. We'll going to paint each day beautiful. I'm going to step into another meeting in minutes but you have never left my mind. I have missed you since lunch and will continue to miss you after until I see you again. I know it's simple but it's all this simple heart has to say. And baby, you've got lamb.

PS. Bie, I cherish today and treasure you for being here every moment. You are beautiful baby. Love you.

Monday Blues

One of the reasons I came back was to remember why I started dancing in the first place. When I'm dancing with you I remember.

~ Another Cinderella Story



It always seems to rain on Mondays. It doesn't rain water but with news and it's often bad. They call it the Monday blues. Not so sure how blue is associated to the word bad but it sure is the Monday blues today. We just had a great near perfect weekend again and something always comes up. She's sad right now and it's raining. The thing that makes it worse is that there is nothing that I can do right now to take away her sadness or this feeling that makes her want to cry. It's the start of another day, another week but somehow nothing seems right.

There is this story of the North Wind and the Sun. The North Wind and the Sun were arguing who was the stronger of the two. In order to battle it out, the North Wind and the Sun agreed between them that they should do no harm and the winner would be decided by which was able to make a passing traveler remove his cloak. The north Wind eager to show his might began first. However hard the North Wind blew at the traveler, the traveler only wrapped his cloak tighter which left the North Wind completely furious. But when it was the Sun's turn, and the Sun shone, the traveler was overcome with heat and had to take his cloak off.

There's a lot of wind blowing all around her now. And she's hugging on tighter and keeping all her sadness inside her. All I can do is be her sun and shine for her. All that a silly lamb can do is shine all the love in the world so that she releases all this sadness inside her. the sadness will never disappear just like that but at least she knows that she's not facing all these alone. Life is never perfect nor is it about chasing perfection. Life is about living it. It's about coming to terms that not everything will go your way but inspite of all the madness, you come to appreciate the highs and lows of life.

There's a low in her life right now but baby, you're not alone. You will never be. I will stand with you and it will shine all the more brighter. I don't write everyday anymore but one thing for sure is that these same words still hold true everyday of our lives. Simply, I love her and she loves me. Today's another day, another step in our life, it's sad but we're still holding hands. And we're going to see the sunrise again.

PS. Bie, I love you. That's all that matters. Whatever sadness you have, I would ask for it. But since it is yours, I'm here to share it with you. Hold my hand. You're all my reasons.

Monday Sci-Fi fever

Find someone who you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back.
You have to try, because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.

~ Meet Joe Black



This morning her phone woke me up to the start of a new week. Opened my eyes to an angel still lost in her dreams. How beautiful she is I thought, actually I've been always guilty of this same thought to the extent that its now a daily crime I can't seem to get rid off. Today besides waking up to her and perfection, I also woke up to a sci-fi reality which is simply another exciting way to kick start the week. It seems that planet earth is not enough to contain our love that we have to venture to outer space. Today, am writing a bit of sci-fi for the amusement of her on the first day of the week. Just want her to smile in the midst of all these distractions and noises around us. Most importantly, baby, I love you.

Year 0717 Intergalactic Space Coordinates 1010 of the Galaxy of Putraheightenon

Diaries From the Unkown

The 'morning collectors of light' spacecrafts have been toiling for 18 hours straight to harvest energy sources. It has been 1,000 years since mankind abandoned planet earth to its doomed fate to roam the galaxy in search of light sources and energy to continue their existence. Having stumbled upon their latest discovery in the Galaxy of Putraheightenon, they have settled here the longest since the days of roaming outer space. The human harvesters have been doubling their efforts to harvest enough energy for storage in the last few months since rumours of sightings of alien species were reported by advanced scouts. Fearing the worse that they could no longer dwell with their new found treasure for any longer, they had to work harder to ensure sufficient energy was harvested.



Today, however, was a day that would change their lives forever. For today, they will come to discover that they were not alone. That the rumours they had heard were true, that man was not alone in the universe. This is an intergalactic tale of the momentous event that will live to change the fates of those to come and the future generations of space inhabitants forever. Nothing could have prepared them for the events that will transpire and the cards that fate had in store for the two races.



It was during approximately the watch of the tenth regiment of human harvesters that 'they' appeared. It was so quiet and serene and nothing registered on any of the scout's radars and they appeared silently out of the blue. Roaming the human harvester main ship "Elf" from behind, the aliens made initial contact by trying to initiate contact via landing crafts from above. The humans mistook the friendly docking to be a signal of attack but being harvesters, had no means of defense. The aliens had difficulty aligning their technology to initiate communication and contact and had to resort to overpowering the escaping main ship. There was a brief chaos as the humans were undecided on contact with the foreign assumed invading vessel.



The aliens boarded the main shuttle, "Elf", with minimal resistance and via communicators were able to signal their intent of a mere initial exploration penetrative exercise aimed at just to establish contact with the humans. Relieved that their worst fears were over, the humans were indeed curious and excited over the 'discovery' of their new friends in outer space. For roaming the earth for 1,000 years, they always thought that they were alone and it was meant to be their destiny to float around the far reaches of the galaxies until the species met its end. For in the days to come, that day would build the foundation of exchanges of fluids of technology and greater sense of togetherness as they continued to co-exist in space.



That date will live in infamy in the annals of history of human race as their first encounter with the unknown and will influence the tides of history as we know it. How could things have been different were it not for the chance residual stay of the human race on the remote galaxy? What if they had not decided to explore that part of the galaxy for resources? And how different would destiny have been had the aliens remained concealed without making contact and remaining indifferent to the fate of the fledging human race? No one knows but the days of the galaxy ahead remain as intriguing as ever as they explore this new intergalactic relationship to the next level on a new chapter.

PS. Bie, I love you on every plane and material space and somehow its not enough so with outer space as witness, I will love you a lifetime. To infinity and beyond.

Monday Honesty

"Every step I have taken since I was born, is a step closer to you"

~ Message in a Bottle



Like Garrett wrote to Theresa in the last letter he wrote in a bottle, that he had found a new love, and that love was her, a love he must fight for, so too do I write this post today that baby. My busy baby bee, you're a love worth fighting for, every reason worth smiling for and every love worth living a lifetime for. I looked at your closed eyes last night and I know that I have this to say, that we should always be honest with each other.

I do not think todays post will warm yours like the creative creations of last week but allow me just today to be honest and let my heart talk to you. So let me write you a message in a bottle to your heart.

To state the obvious, I can't swim to which you were shocked when I first told you but here I am learning to dive to see the underwater world with you.



I dislike the way I can't swim that I don't know how to breathe under H2O that I look like an idiot.



I dislike the way I wear my muscles out just to learn how to fin the proper way while both you and Nick can already fin.

I dislike the way I slow down the classes just so I won't swallow water like a fish.



I hate the way water works its way into my mask and I keep failing to get into the deeps.

I hate the way it seems im making a fuss over every single difficult exercise which simply wastes time in the pool and for making you cold for staying with me.

I hate making Nick and you worry about my safety in the open sea.

I hate it for making you feel so bad about something that you are so passionate about.

And because of all this, I like the way you smile when I do not give up after swallowing water at least 15 times for each exercise.



I like the way you look at me and hold my hand while we do the exercises.

I like the way you are happy because we're doing this together and for funny episodes in the pool involving secondary life support!

I like the way Nick cuts me some slack because I work hard and keep going at it without pausing or being afraid and you just keep swimming around trying not to add pressure.

I like the way I surprise everyone by completing all the exercises even when I can't swim, have a lot of cuts, bruises and I breathe like a Ferrari.

I love the way we are doing this together and the way you wait for me even when its late and people have all left the pool.

I love the way you do not give up on me although all the odds are stacked against me.



I love the way you believe in our love and keep putting me number one eventhough this is something that you've put on hold for at least six years.

I love the way you said there is no other way than me after going through this together.

I love doing this not because I want to but because its something that can make both of us smile.

I love it that were taking our relationship to another level and by going through all this together because its definitely going to last a lifetime baby.



Most of all, I love you baby.

You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.
You'd be like Heaven to touch.
I wanna hold you so much.
At long last love has arrived
And I thank God I'm alive.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

I love you, baby,
And if it's quite alright,
I need you, baby,
To warm a lonely night.
I love you, baby.
Trust in me when I say:
Oh, pretty baby,
Don't bring me down, I pray.
Oh, pretty baby, now that I found you, stay
And let me love you, baby.
Let me love you.

PS. Bie, I'm holding your hand on a Monday. Its just the start of our list and our lives.

a love letter on a Monday evening

“It still amazes me how many millions goes to discovering another star in the galaxies when, for all we know, we are still sitting on top of another undiscovered world beneath out feet.”

Martin Dansky



I am writing this letter from my heart on a Monday evening. I know I have writen you a post earlier today but sometimes the heart has things to say that just does not know how to rest. I know you think I always have something to say but I think its important to always let my heart talk to yours. This letter is not to wow or awe your heart with sweet words but a whisper that my heart feels you should hear. On a Monday with you, before my heart begins its symphony, it must be said that you are beautiful, the most beautiful in my world.

Baby, being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections. I am not perfect and I make you jump over everything big and small. You are afraid to see a frown or a face without a smile. But you do not have to fret. My hand does not leave yours easily nor does it intend to. I'm also here learning to look beyond my own mistakes and to love you with my whole heart, body and mind. I have failed miserably at times, turning my back to you when you wanted to hug me, created misunderstandings and even hurt you so many times. I do not intend to apologise because apologies does not heal the heart, only love does. Let me love you every second that lasts an eternity. Let me be here for you for a lifetime.

Bie, theres a lot of things that can make us afraid and I know you treat me as your priority and you keep shifting your rules around me. You keep me as your center of your universe and you are so sensitive about everything that relates to me. I know you want me to be happy always. I want you to be happy too and not change your life around me. I am here, to complete you and your life. Because you too make me whole. You want me to see your passions and the world beneath that left you in awe. Let me tell you now baby that there is nothing more beautiful than witnessing true beauty with the one you love be it under the stars, or in the depths of the ocean or in your eyes.

My baby is often worried that you will bully me if I keep pampering you, but your heart's too soft to even let it, bie. You think of all the worst possibilities but never forget baby that my hand is here holding yours this very moment and its not letting go. Everytime you are scared, remember that I am here with you, to see every moment. Everytime you are worried about something, I am more worried than you. Everytime it rains, I am here with a pallette to paint you a rainbow. Everytime the sun peeks from the clouds, I am here to share the sunshine with you but with my hand over your head. Everytime you smile, my world is born again and you baby, you're the reason why my earth goes round.

I would like to sign off as the baby of your life. But here I am saying I love you as the real man of yours. I will be faithful in all times, past all temptations because the only temptation worth living and dying for is the promise of a lifetime with you. I will be strong when you are weak not because I am your man but because you are my woman. I will be respectful because you are a lady that deserves all the care in the world. I will be sweet as candy because you melt a heart of a confused child. I will be yours because you will be mine too. And despite all my imperfection, thank you for loving me because I will be loving you too...for a lifetime.

PS. Bie, the only world worth living in is the one you're breathing in.